MBS Drunk Fest.

Bacardi 151 slayed many on Surin's Birthday Drunk Fest.

I threw a bitch fit when Yet Another Bitch (Y.A.B.) called him.

Slapped him and chased him out of the room. But he came back in, and I screwed Y.A.B. over.

I don't deserve this shit. Not when I'm already so sick.

Even though he asked me to marry me, I don't know if he's speaking the truth from his heart or not.

Yes, he asked me to marry him.

I know, you will all go, "NOOooooo~~!!" and "WTF?!".

In my half drunk state, I had nodded, smiled, and dozed off. I woke up asking him if I was dreaming.

Oh Lord, What am I supposed to do? I love him but I don't wish to be stabbed, twisted and stabbed again by this man. What have I done to deserve this?

=(

All alone with no one to turn to.

I guess this is a fight that I'll have to go through alone.

Body's aching.

Surgery.

Never been to one before. But I guess this will be my first time.

I wish Grand was here with me...

:(

The last thing I need is for you to LIE AGAIN and AGAIN.

I can never trust you. NEVER.

I'm glad we're through.

<3

When drinking at White Bar after doing my nails last night with Irene! <3

Had our nails done at NuBar, a new nail parlor! It was really exclusive, by appointment only, and the lady boss did our nails for us!

Spent about 5 hours in NuBar, and bought a new pair of OPI Slippers, cuz I'd realized that my Pedro heels were going to spoil my pedicure!

Gold is the new RED. <3~!

Had dinner at TCC around 11pm after our nails were done and headed down to White Bar for beer with Irene, Edward and his friends!

<3

25% off TCC food FTW! <3

LOL.

Had Shark's Fin soup at Golden Cafe, and Salad Youtiao.

Got in a cab, and got to know that the taxi uncle lives at Drive 4!

HAHA!

He was like, "Thanks Goodness you live here, then I can go home for my Scotch."

LOL!

<3

3am.

The last thing I need is another LIE.

Have fun doing Esther Koh.

You DISGUST ME.

=(

I CAN'T DNIF MY SKIRT!

=(

THE SKIRT I SAW ON EBAY WON'T MAKE IT TO SINGAPORE IN TIME, AND IT COSTS A BOMB. =(

SIGH. FML. LMF.

I've

1. Colored my hair, a dark brown. It's still leaking color!
2. Made an appointment to do my nails with Irene tomorrow at NuBar!

I STILL CAN'T FIND THE SKIRT!!!

DAMN~!

weekend!

I forgot what I did on Friday. =/

OH! ON FRIDAY, I WENT FOR EDGAR'S HOUSE PARTY! Loads of yummilicious Indian food. Ate loads!

<3!

Then Alex and I cabbed down to Bottle Tree Park for beer before going to Yishun borrow his Uncle's new Mazda for a drive!

=p

Brought along a bottle of Johnny Walker and Walk-ed in car while watching other people make out.

2 Merc SLKs and a BMW. LOL!

The uncle in the BMW was with a xiao mei mei, and he even came out of his car to take a picture before heading back in. ROFL!

The Merc SLKs, on the other hand, kept rolling down their windows / top before making out. LOL.

We thought that was a very clear signal for a free show, so we poured ourselves a drink and WATCHED.

WE EVEN FLICKED ON THE LIGHTS IN THE CAR FOR A BETTER VIEW!

HEHEHE!

Too bad they drove off shortly after a while when they realised that we were REALLY WATCHING.

Oh well, *shrugs*

Drank, trash talked until 4am, then took a cab home. LOL. We were too drunk to risk a road block. =p

SATURDAY...

I think I spent the most of it at home, sleeping until 1pm before heading out with The Tormentors in the evening for some Chinese New Year shopping at Hougang Mall.

Cal was out with Audrey the "bestie" who hates me, for reasons UNKNOWN! Probably because she had fucked him before and the fact that him, in a relationship = no other pussies, meant her not getting any, kinda made me the dick snatcher.

LOL.

Look, I offered to give him up, but you decided not to take it. It's your loss, you spilled the milk I offered to you, so no use crying over it!

pfft!

I don't lack dicks, kthanxbye.

Anyway, we were at NTUC Extra, picking out Mandarin Oranges for Chinese New Year when the Q.B. found rotting Mandarins in the carton!

The entire bottom layer of the carton was lined with GREEN, MOULDY, ROTTING ORANGES!

YUCKS!

Decided not to buy them after that.

Rather pay more to pick out the good oranges!

Ricky had called me while I was in the car to Hougang, to study together at his place with Jason and Surin. Took a long while to decide before going down at around 11pm.

Copied tons of notes, studied some, and STARTED DRINKING.

LOL. Martel Red Label + Beer FTW!

Drank and watched Ghost Game with them. I was so damn fucking scared out of my wits. LOL. Hid behind the pillow and blanket half the time. LOL.

I hate horror!

Everyone drank, but Jason, cuz he was sick. He might have possibly passed it to me, since now I'm sick! UGHS!

Anyway, we got hungry, and wanted Supper. Jason drove Ricky's car to Bishan, and on the way, we were so damn lucky to have Jason drive, cuz we went pass a road block. >_<

LOL.

Surin made a fool of herself when she kept talking about her need to go take a crap while we were eating. ROFL.

Drunk cuteness!

Got home, again, around 3am.

SUNDAY...

Cal came over to wake me up at 9am-ish and we headed down to church. Late. BECAUSE IT WAS A COMBINED SERVICE AND WE WERE UNAWARE!

Attended all but 10 minutes of the service, and headed down to Bugis for my last minute Chinese New Year clothes shopping!

Scoured the entire Bugis Street and Bugis Junction, bought 2 new corsets from De Corselet ($150) , a pair of garter stockings ($8) , a furry bag, which I haggle from $49 to $38, and a GOLD FISH RING which was going for $29 (SUPER LOVE THE RING), haggled and bought the bag and ring for $63!

I LOVE BARGAINING! <3!

Now I still need

1. A skirt to go with the corset.
2. Colour my hair
3. Mani and Pedicure.

Anyway, we headed to Cal's and then to Cal's Nephew's 21st Birthday Party in one of those condos in Bukit Timah! Dranks loads, ate loads, and kidnapped babies!

I had fun playing with his baby niece and nephews, disturbing him along the way. kekez!

FUN!

Got home around 2am.

=concuss=

Down with Sore throat and Runny Tummy. FML. Too much Alcohol!

< chiong > Accounting paper, part 2.< / chiong >

You're roaming around online, randomly viewing pictures and gaming. You spot someone who has a friend you're mutual friends with on Facebook. Curious, you click into that person's profile.

"Hmm, not bad looking! Nice hair, nice face, hot figure..."

That someone is Single, and lives pretty near you. You take a chance, and click on "Send Friend Request".

You send that someone a Private Message, and start a chat.

Surprisingly, you receive a reply within minutes. Your attention is diverted from your Facebook game.

A few more exchanges and you realise that the person is pretty interesting. Much more interesting than your current partner, whom you've grown accustomed to, with less new things to keep you interested as the relationship wears on.

The Windows Live Messenger from the corner of your screen pops up. Your partner is online.

The pop up fades away. You didn't click on the pop up to say 'HI' as you normally would.

You continue your Facebook exchanges and asks for that person's Instant Messaging E-mail.

The Private Messages becomes nightly chats on MSN Messenger. You stop saying 'HI' to your partner.

The relationship is changing. Slowly, but definitely...

Where sincerity counts, he fails.

I'm changing Boyfriend.

Went for a Manicure last night while waiting for Cal. I LOVE MY NAILS! Too bad the color on me left thumb has chipped. =/

Lady's Finger at AMKhub gives lousy manicures.

We had dinner at Pepper Lunch. He did all that cooking on that messy hotplate for me.

<3

Stayed the night at his place, cuz we were playing Godswar Online till 1am +.

Went to work from his place and I liked how near his place is to office.

No mad rush, no need for cab.

Not to mention the yummy morning sex. =D

Mugging Accounting at work while trying to figure out how to use MYOB.

Thank Gad SKW (pun intended) was online to help me with some of it. Since he uses it as well. Just that mine's so basic, I'm too much of a genius to know how to use it.

=.=!

SHALL HEAD HOME AND CONTINUE MUGGING TONIGHT!

... for

FOIE GRAS

*orgasm*

A craving and fetish so deep, my body craves...

If only you could fathom...

The deep ache...

On WEDNESDAY.

Met Zhe and his friend before class for tea and some shopping around Hugo Boss, Y3, Armani and whatnot for THE pair of Perfect Trousers.

Was on the way to school when my silver iPanema platoform slippers, which I'd been wearing for almost 2 years, BROKE.

Right outside of PEDRO. The shoe fairies were giving me a sign. Not just any sign, but a STRONG sign that I HAD to BUY my new pair at PEDRO.

<3!

So I went to Pedro and spent $58++ on a pair of PURPLE HEELS! <3>

Headed for Acccounting class, and I was a happy student for the night.

=D

THURSDAY.

Work.

And then! Lunch with my fav lunch buddy! =D Had Ajisen!

=D

Then it was night classes again.

Daryl brought me to this place for Mac's and it was sooo lovely! With a nice garden! <3~

Bought 2 of it's Miniature Collection. =D

Drank in class again, and it's good that I was able to do all my questions under the influence.

NICE.

I love my new heels.

FRIDAY.

Went for the immunization, was told that I was immunized as an infant, but I requested for a retest anyway. Will get immunized against Hep A and, if necessary, B, in 2 week's time.

Postponed KKH appointment to the 28th.

Spent the entire day with Cal.

SATURDAY.

School from 9am to 5 30pm. But I was stuck at home from 8am till 12pm, cuz I had no idea what to wear for Rocky Horror Show in the evening!

UGH!

=How blonde can I get, seriously!=

So I gave up after 4 hours of struggle and just threw on my favourite top.

Voila, right dress code.

dammit.

Absolute waste of 4 hours. UGHS.

I was so damn sleepy in class I had no idea how I manage to answer those Accounting questions with their brain numbing digits.

It was raining after class and I was lucky to have classmates willing to send me and Daryl to the Esplande. =)

Cal was late, and Daryl was such a darling. =D

Accompanied me while I waited for him at Max Brenner's Chocolate bar! =D Treated him to a nice chocolate drink. =D

Had a very nice dinner at Ichiban Boshi with Cal before Rocky Horror Show, and I had a great time! =D

IF I have a chance, I would go see it again!!!

Headed down to 7Ate9 with Cal after Rocky Horror, and saw Clara Liew! She's working there, so we had a nice chat!

Headed back to Cal's in a sleepy state after a Vodkatini, Daiquiri and 7 shots. Blowjob, Quick Fuck, Brain Tumor, B-52, Lemon Drop & Kamikaze.

Got home around 6am-ish and I'm not in class.

=(

When you're not around me, I panic...

UGHS!

My Memory is failing me!

I'd waited for 2 hours at the Polyclinic and was intending to ask the doctor is I could get my Hepatitis shots taken while flu-ish as I am, since I'd made an appointment for Friday, but I FORGOT!

UGHS!

And now I'll have to make another trip down to the polyclinic on Friday to try my luck at getting vaccinated.

Grr...

Resolution. May or may not be fulfilled.

1. SAVE more!
2. Club less!
3. Get HEALTHIER!
4. EAT NICER FOOD!
5. Learn to COOK!

I realised that I've NEVER had the habit to write New Year Resolutions. Because they never get achieved in the end.

I'd rather just make them up along the way as I go and if I achieve them, then good for me. If not, then oh well, continue trying!

This boy, I still love.

IF YOU WANT HIM, TAKE IT. STOP BEING SUCH A BITCH WHEN HE'S MINE. Pfft...

AND YOU, STOP DRAGGING ME ALONG. BECAUSE I'M NOT YOUR RAG DOLL.

ADMIT WHAT YOU FEEL ABOUT EACH OTHER AND MOVE ALONG. I'M NOT INTERESTED IN YOUR MELODRAMA.

Bitches. =/

I know my instincts. It's never wrong.

Goodbye Calvin Yio.

Because you don't love me.

YOU GIVE LOVE, A BAD NAME.

an angels smile, is what you sell

you promise me heaven then put me through hell

chains of love, got a hold on me

when passion's a prison you can't break free...

Self explanatory.

Although he was absolutely sweet to me on Sunday and somewhat on Saturday, I can't help but have that nagging feeling...

Can I trust this man or not?

Paid for lunch today, at Big Bites, had vegetarian Indian cuisine at Little India after church with Cal, and bought meself some Salmon Pink bangles at $5!

CHEAP!

Went to his place for dinner and a siesta, but a nagging feeling kept lingering while napping.

I can't really pin point...

Anyway, I washed his head really clean, cuz it was damn dirty (sorry, but I'm obsessed with cleaning my man), and it felt good to clean him.

LOL.

Sometimes I wonder what game is he playing with me. I really pray he isn't though.

Dear Lord, What should I do? Should I do what everyone has been telling me, to extract myself from him, or do I stick to him like I had initially set out to do? Doesn't make sense to stick to a man who doesn't care much about you, even if I do love him. Since love fades, and it's better to be loved than to love. Because love HURTS.

Everyone says that, and it seems to be so...

Please hear my prayers. Amen.

It would've been a wonderful day, if not for the petty men.

Went to NYP, for a walk down memory lane, met Monsieur Lame and Monsieur Terrence, talked to some new birds in L'Hexagon.

Cal had a new hair cut, and while I was snoozing on his bed, he brushed my hair.

I felt like a kitty. LOL. But it was a nice feeling, to be pampered this way. LOL.

Headed down to The Cathay for Love & Other Drugs, bumped into Fefe and Jabie!

HEHE!

Double date!

Fefe and I planned it all and it was fun. LOL.

Then we went for dinner at Crepes, this French restaurant run by a French Cook's family and his Singaporean wife!

Learnt a few new French words and I had a really happy time!

Too bad the guy dates had some unhappiness over the bills and I wasn't very happy being the middle person.

Cal has been making expensive purchases and he seems to blame me for his excessive spending even though they are no items of mine.

=(

I didn't make him buy a Kinects, New Graphics Card, or Power Supply Unit!

I'm pretty upset.

It's not as if I don't have my own bills and things to pay for, and for someone who comes from a lower class family, with lower earnings, I don't even complain as much as he does about not having enough money!

I get by well enough, and I'm happy as I am. TSK!

We sort of sorted it out, but it has left a very sour taste in my mouth. I shall stop suggesting dinner dates with him to restaurants.

I need new dinner dates...

P.S: I'm still sick, and it has gotten so bad that my nose is totally stuck and I'm breathing through my mouth.

It's good to have such lovely friends. =)

Morning was ruined by Cal. I got hormonal and bitched out.

Tried to break up. Failed. No resolve. LOUSY!

Then someone came and cheered me up. Went for lunch at New York New York. I'm thankful to have you as a friend. =)

Back at work, office closed early.

So left office at 5 20pm instead of the usual 5 30pm - 6pm.

Went to wait for Feonna at Bishan before heading down to Paragon. =D

SHE GOT ME A SUPER CUTE PINK AND PURPLE BIKINI FROM THAILAND!!!

THANKS, FEFE!!

Bitched and dined at Din Tai Feng.

Had 10 Crab and Pork Xiao Long Bao, 10 Gu Cai Xiao Long Bao, and 5 TRUFFLES Xiao Long Bao.

<3

Shopped around Paragon, went to take a look at the fitness first gym, and window shopped at Cineleisure and *Scape.

Took Neoprints after a million years, and it was FUN!

=D

Bumped into Samson at Cineleisure, just when we were about to go for Frolicks, and he invited me to join him for Jason's birthday at a Thai Disco. Too bad Cal, with his indecisiveness, finally decided to come fetch me.

So no Thai Disco for me. =/

Had the longest car ride home, EVER. With all those negative emotions and misunderstandings swirling around, I felt like jumping out of the car and scream.

=(

Sorted it out in the car when he parked it below my block. Screamed at each other for a good hour plus.

Make up and make out.

I dreamt that I died.

And I didn't even realise it until someone told me so.

Weird dreams I have.

I'm still having really bad sore throat.

Cal's sister just gave birth. Cal's an uncle again.

Chatted with Daryl's GF on MSN last night. T'was fun.

I'd like to see Cal's Priority List.

I wonder what it's like.

I have no priorities.

Why does baby smell like something burnt in his mouth today?

I had a nightmare.

I dreamt that I picked up smoking.

I woke up feeling so fucking disgusting and dirty.

Like I'd done the worse thing a person could ever do.

I'm in pain and I can't sleep.

Grandpa, I miss you...

In utter pain.

Feels like stomach flu. Except the pain is isolated on the left side of my tummy. I don't know what it is...

Puked, yet still in pain.

Was it the mutton curry I had for lunch this afternoon, or was it the burger I ate at Wendy's?

I had Casuarina Curry at Pierce Reservoir this afternoon with Uncle before a short walk at Upper Pierce Reservoir.

Nice place to relax. Very beautiful.

Cal doesn't know how to take care of me.

We went for movie after work. Little Fockers was very funny.

Had Wendy's for dinner. Pain came right after finishing the Cheesy Burger. =/

Cal made me walk home in heels from the MRT station. I was in so much pain I literally curled into a ball in the middle of the road.

He doesn't seem to know what to do with me. WTF.

The last time I had stomach flu, Jabie threw me into a cab to the door step of the 24 hour clinic near his place for a jab.

Maybe it's the vadai I had from Casuarina curry.

I think I'm back in the game.

=D

FML.

Stabbed my own finger with my unfiled nails.

Had lunch with Cal today, since he was on leave.

I think I just made him a very happy boy. Cuz his text messages started ending with " :3" and "<3".

LOL.

I rule.

The entire day was spent with Cal, and every moment was good.

Was really late for church, cuz I was really tired and couldn't seem to wake myself up.

Anyway, we had lunch with Cal's sister after service, and walked to Bugis for karaoke with Uni mates at TopOne.

Fun!

Realised that lots of them have very good singing voice. I can't sing for nuts.

Went shopping around Bugis street after singing, and Cal went to buy a box of very expensive durian. The Lao Beng tending the stall claimed that it was Mao Shan Wang, and Cal paid $68 for it.

But when the Tormentors tasted it, they told him that it was what he paid for. WTF.

I'd felt that the box of durian was too expensive, but he had insisted on the purchase.

T_T

But the flesh was good enough. At least it wasn't lousy.

Had some red wine with the durian, although such a combination could possibly cause nose bleeds, but the Father Figure insisted.

No nose bleed. All clear. =p

Tormentors sent Cal home after the Queen Bitch made it clear to Cal that I'm BANNED from stayovers.

Pfft.

I finally cut my nails.

2011...

A New Year with no cause for cheer.

On NYE, found out that Cal was too busy tackling other girls online to visit me while I was sick, asking her out for "FUN".

It's obvious what it means, I have no need to spell it out.

I felt thoroughly disgusted.

I can safely say that I no longer have any trust in him, and he will have to earn it back.

If he wants to play this game, I will play it with him. He'll never realise what hit him until it's too late.

Except for now, I'll just warn him. I'm not going to play the old game, unless push turns to shove.

Beef Cakes is back from the Himalayas. I hope the exodus has done him some good. Hehs.

I really wonder how this relationship is going to work out without trust.

Right now, I'm just being very open and candid to him about everything while he continues trying to hide and stow away his dirty little deeds bit by bit.

You can hide, but you'll never be able to escape from facing your deeds.

I'm quite pissed. I've been extending to him the option to break up so that he may continue with his old ways but he has continued to come back irregardless.

.

Sometimes, I really wonder what the fuck is he trying to achieve by screwing around with me.

When push turns to shove, you'll wish you never knew me...

ANYWAY, I spent New Year's Day with him, sleeping from 6am till 6pm, having emotional sex with random outburst of tears and orgasms, though in an emotional state, the sex wasn't any good.

Made baked pasta for dinner with the leftovers from last night, and it was delicious! Had some Otah and Carlsberg while watching TV, and things kinda felt nice and normal until some clichéd lines from some random movie spoilt the mood.

My faith in a long lasting and trustworthy relationship has been pretty much ruined since being with Cal.

Absolutely, Utterly Jaded.

I wonder under what miracle will it ever be revived again, this faith.

I can only go on a step at a time, hoping for things to work out.

Is this love worth fighting for?