I'm not looking forward to me impending joblessness. But I can't stand working in this negative and volatile environment any further.

It is taking it's toll on me emotionally, physically and mentally.

Having to go through the entire interview process again in this job search is a drag. Especially the need to dress up and impress when I'm now 75kg and not losing any weight is shitty.

More so without appropriate interview clothes, because my 60kg clothes no longer fit my 75kg frame.

And the fashion these days. Have you seen the sizes stocked on those racks?!

Size zeroes. Size fours.

It screams "Anorexia"!

I look forward to being jobless and slimming down in my free time while trying to get myself back into the right frame of mind.

Mentally, I'm spent and wrecked from my foray last year into the financial industry and the bullshit of this company.

I am, more than ever, determined to work in a MNC. With structure, procedures and processes.

SMEs with no regards for the law can crumble for all they want. I want no part in their lawless ways.

Yes, that's what I'll do.

I may be very down financially, but what's new. I've been poor all along. And when you're down all the time, the only way now is up.

(My optimism is but short-lived. See me cry and bitch when my money runs out.)