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Monday, December 29, 2008

*EXPLETIVES*

So the fucking fat maid has been stealing my books to read without permission and skiving from the housework.

I caught her with my Twilight series for the 5th time, and told her to "Please respect my belongings", yet she claimed that she wasn't respected.

HAH.

Perhaps it's time she gets a taste of me being TOTALLY disrespectful.

She hasn't been washing the toilets at all, and this morning while bathing, a MOTHERFUCKING BIG LIZARD DROPPED FROM THE TOILET CEILING AND ONTO THE FLOOR. AND IT FUCKING RAN TOWARDS ME. WTF.

I WAS SO DISGUSTED, I SHRIEKED AND RAN OUT OF THE TOILET NAKED!

KNN.

If she did her fucking housework, then perhaps she would earn more respect.

Geez.

I almost banged a China man while driving today during driving lessons. That fucker sped out from the corner street while I was making a U-turn and tried to cut into my lane. WTFKNNCCB.

Good thing I reacted quickly and E-braked, honking at him. The instructor was so pissed that he screamed and cursed at him while I drove beside that motherfucker who was trying to speed away in his stupid filmsy bicycle.

Anyway, even if I were to crush him with the car, I won't be the one at fault since it was my right of way.

And there would be ONE LESS STUPID CHINA MAN ON THE ROAD!!

This is Singapore, not China, where road traffic rules are made up along the way, and bicycles are the kings of the roads.

Getting him crushed by the car would just stain the car and dirty the roads with his stupid blood.

Pfft.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Charlie's Peranakan Food.

Headed down to Charlie's Peranakan Food after church at BMC.

The prayers offered by Dehui and Justin, I truly appreciate.

THANK YOU ALL!

I'm just in no mood to explain what the effing hell has been happening, but at the right time, all will be told.


Christms day!!

I got a present, and it was a TOWEL set from The Depressed Aunt.

LOL. She gave everyone a towel set. We went to church in the morning, went back to his place for Christmas lunch (shitloads of food) and then headed down to Tenah Merah to go for a Christmas feast at someone's big big big bungalow!!!!!!


(I want that house.)






We had a gift exchange segment, and I got a WEBCAM!


OMFGWTFBBQ.


And Justin got a Thumbdrive!!


But we wrapped only bags and name card holders. I feel like such a cheapskate.
There was work on Boxing Day, but I overslept and had to cab down to work. AND THEN, I met Justin to go to Uncle Raja's house for Boxing Day dinner and the Shepard's pie was absolutely marvellous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And the pineapple tarts...heaven. LOL.
Saturday was spent at Sentosa's Palawan Beach where I tanned, and collected mini snails!!!
<3
But I wasn't tanned cuz I slathered on too much tanning lotion. WTF. Lotion defeated my purpose.
THe Queen Bitch's back at it again, so yeah, Merry Christmas to me, for I have to relocate AGAIN.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Christmas Eve dinner at Big Fish!

I had dinner with W.Q on Christmas Eve after a Christmas Lunch at the company headquarters where almost 70% were INTERNS.

ROFL.
(Little wonder why the company's named somewhere in rhyme to interns.)

Anyway, W.Q drove me to Big Fish and we tried their Christmas Eve dinner set!

We added 2 other appetizers!

The food was a little off the mark, probably due to the crowd, and it wasn't as appetizing as we expected.

The prawn cocktail was good, except for the lettuce where it left a very bitter after taste.

The mango slices were sweet and slightly crunchy, adding more crunch to the cocktail. The Creme of Chestnuts were BLAND, and the only thing that made the soup palatable was the extremely fragrant and crunchy roasted walnuts.
NEXT UP! MY FAVOURITE ESCARGOT!!!
It was still as nice! AND I think that was the only dish I really enjoyed.
The Antipostle (sp??) was way too salty and the flavours were mixed up from the sashimi to the prawns to the squid, sadly.
The white salad had too much garlic in it and it ended up tasting of just - Garlic.Then it came to the main course of Turkey slices, cranberry sauce and turkey juice. The turkey was not too dry, and the sauce was complementary.

Dessert was the second dish loved. LOL. The mini log cakes were just delicious. >_<

Oh, and he felt like drinking Merlot, so a bottle of Mad Fish at Big Fish felt appropriate though it didn't really complement the turkey we were having which was poultry.

=p

Gave him a really cute present and was glad he liked it!

Cuz it's just so fucking cute. LOL.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

I'll celebrate X'mas with the OH group.

ALCOHOL.

ALCOHOL!

T'IS THE SEASON TO BE MERRY, LALALALA~ LALALA!

BINGE DRINK TILL ONE PUKES, OH JOLLY~

LALALA, LALA, LA LA~!

=D

Dinner with W.Q tomorrow night!

XD

And then it's feast day on Christmas!

I'm hoping for some alcohol!

God moved me... Or did Charisma?

On saturday I met up with Dehui for an Evangelistic production by JES Media. TV stars starred the show, and no doubt the acting was above average.

The acting touched me, and I was able to emphatise with the characters.

At the end of the play, a pastor came forth and gave a very charismatic speech and asked for those who wish to believe (again) to come forth.

I was in need of relieve from the stress and problems, and tne charismatic and touching speech made by the pastor moved me.

Perhaps God was at it, but I wasn't sure.

I went forward to receive Christ again.

It felt good and strange. We hugged and cried. Prayed. Fervent.

But after all that was over, while eating supper with W.Q, I began to wonder if it was God or Charisma that touched me.

I would like to believe it was God. But why only now, under such charismatic circumstances??

Only God knows.

Anyway, Dehui was nice to accompany me back to Downtown East to wait for W.Q even though she lives in Yishun.

<3

We saw Yes Man at 1:45AM because Twilight was sold out.

And taking a slow walk home alone gave me time to think through things.

*sigh*

Saturday, December 20, 2008

The Chaos & Unease.

Just when I thought I knew what I wanted, Justin makes a turn and tells me he isn't sure if that's what he wants.

I get the message.

He just doesn't want this relationship anymore.

But I have to hear it from him before I let it go.

*Sigh*

Anyway, shopping with Shorty yesterday was pretty fun. I bought her a necklace at 77th Street for $16.50 as her Christmas present.

It's a blue/red/white Rubik's cube pendant studded with glass crystals on a black chain.

Can't take a picture of it cuz she's not letting me.

*sigh*

I'm putting off the writing of my report this week.

I learnt nothing new, except for the teaching of the new intern to do Karl Fischer. But how am I supposed to write that as overview?

Geez.

I wish there was someone to protect me from all these harm.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Menopausal bitch.

The Queen Bitch was at it again, flipping through my belongings and personal letters, and accusing me of having a 'toy boy'.

ROFL.

IF I were that RICH to have a toy boy, I would've bought myself a Hermes Birkin!

ROFL.

Just because of a $100 meal which I had paid for myself. ROFL.

Ridiculous.

What made me really unhappy was her invasion of my privacy and her abuse of authority.

Didn't help that she took a plastic rod and hit me with it; resulted in a bruised and swollen knuckle and a bruised back.

Sigh.

I cried because of the fucking injustice of it all, and the unhappiness and emotional pain brought by accumulated events radiated through my body.

The pain became physical yet intangible...

Sunday, December 14, 2008

SHOPPING AND PAMERINGS!!!!!

The day we had dinner at Kembangan.
















WE WENT SHOPPING OVER THE WEEKENDS~!



I've been meeting him most days after work at Vivocity for dinner and I bought for him leather shoes from PrimaVera~!



My favourite pair cost me $129. WTF. But it was fucking nice! He bought me a purple pair for $39 which I've yet to post pictures of. LOL.



Yesterday, Justin made a hair appoinment to get my hair done, and I got it treated, dyed and highlighted at Heatwave!!



<3



The whole package was $168 and my hair now rocks!!
Then after dinner at Cafe Cartel (we had St. Louis Poek Ribs), we went by Giordano, which was having a 40% off midnight sales!



ZOMG.



Bought him this super cute sweater for $35 after discount! (Usual was $59~).



LOVES.









Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Shopping on Monday!

Went shopping with Justin on Monday.

There's so many things that money can buy.

LOL.

Today sucked big time.

THe new intern didn't turn up today and we ended up fucking short handed.

I had to run the fucking Seta/crackle and Karl Fischer test.

Was so stressed up with the rushing samples to the point where I felt a pimple pop out of my forehead.

WTF.

I hate it when the lab gets too busy. I don't get to learn new test methods.

T_T

Saturday, December 6, 2008

I CAN'T FIND MY NYONYA BAJU KEBAYA!!

Grr, I spent the whole day sleeping and talking with the Father Figure, and the other half of the day looking for THE Nyonya Kebaya for New Year.

I know that Chinese New Year is still a few months away, but I won't have the time to do it all with this internship and all.

Argh.

I found this Kebaya I loved but the shop owner was anal, refused to give me a discount even though it was a display piece, had BABY LIZARDS jumping around the fucking shop, and the kebaya had NEEDLE HOLES in them.

WTF.

NEVER EVER buy ANYTHING from the front row of shops in Geylang Serai. They're all out to cheat you of your money!!

Cuz the Queen Bitch went and bought her kebaya for $25 and when we went to the shops further in, it was going ON SALE at $18.

WTF.

And they were willing to give a discount too.

Pfft.

Never go to Zee Shin.

Bugis!!

Met up with Feonna today after work, and headed down to Bugis for dinner! We decided to head to Miss Clarity Cafe at Purvis Street for dinner, and on the way out of Bugis Junction, saw this really pretty Christmas tree!!

We couldn't help ourselves but to take a picture and many other blurred ones (by shakey handed tourists) of the pretty tree!

It had Merry-go-round ponies and glass ornaments!!

<3











Dinner was nice, and we ordered our usuals.


Yummy as always!


I almost wanted to order dessert when Feonna reminded me that we were going to head down to Tom's Palatte for Ice Cream!!!


It started pouring pretty heavily after dinner, and thank goodness, both of us had umbrellas handy in our bags!!!


We arrived at the shop cold and slightly drenched, but we still insisted on eating the ice creams anyway!


I tried almost all the flavours available, before finally settling for Chestnut Brandy (Chestnut+Brandy+Preserved Cherries!) and Chocolate Pudding (Chocolate + Marshmellows+ nuts!).


The table's full of scribblings from satisfied customers!They had shitloads of self created flavours from Chilli Chocolate to Salted Caramel Cheesecake!


Check out their Flavours of the Month in their website!


http://www.tomspalette.com.sg/ if you can't click it!!!


You can even order the ice creams online!!


<3>

=.=!!


I kept looking at the Braun Bruffel bag in Tang's and I think I must get it by hook or by crook. LOL.


There's another design that I love more, but I couldn't find the picture on the BB website anymore.

Which only means that it's more sought after!

But it looks more 'matured'.

>_<>

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Very exhausted.

The Tormentors are buying a new family car, a seven seater Honda, I think. They've put the downpayment, and the purple Nissan Sunny will be handed over to the buyer on Sunday.

Sad.

I loved the purple.

But I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEW HONDA TO ARRIVE!!

Anyway, work has taken it's toll on me again, and the flu from a few weeks (??) ago never went away.

I went out for drinks and pool with Xian Bin yesterday to mend his broken heart and share my stories over beer (mine Hoegaardenm, his Corona Extra) at Summer Breeze in Pasir Ris Park.

Some filming for some Suria show was going on while we chatted, and we spent sometime watching them film.

Got home around 10pm or 11 pm, and slept right away. The soundest sleep I've ever had in ages, until 2am where I was awaken by a full bladder. Agh, darn beer.

Woke up this morning at 6:30am, extremely late for work, and literally jumped out of the bed and out of the house in 10 minutes flat.

Managed to get to work on time and WITHOUT cabbing.

=D

After work, Wan drove Aein and Dil to the train station on the way, and sent me home since it was along the way to his hot date. LOL.

Chatter was great, and I even gave him some advice and topics to talk about to the girl!

=x

My phone needs fixing, since it has been giving me tons of fucking problems like not ringing when it's supposed to, and shutting down automatically as and when it feels like it. WTF.

Sigh...

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

I'm back to old habits.

Back to my fucking old habits.





Argh.





I need a cake to stabilize myself.

(Bought them while out eating dinner with Justin at the nearby coffeeshop in J.E.)




The Karl Fischer auto titrator's a bitch of a machine to operate. Grr...



It's mood swings more drastically than a menopausal woman.

Works a moment, and the next it's drifting for 30 minutes with no signs of stabilizing.

*expletives*

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Met up with WenHui today for lunch and went to Cornerstone Church with her. Another charismatic church with rock bands, tongues and a crying priest who kept asking us to donate.

=,=

But the atmosphere wasn't as bad, and there were more youths.

Had lunch with her at Katong Mall's famour Boneless Chicken Rice, and as we were leaving, bumped into Justin and R.

I felt the blood drain out of my face and my heart shatter.

It's like seeing him everytime makes me sad.

*Sigh*

I feel like just hugging him and cry everytime it happens and that sucks.

Shards of my heart with tears and blood.

Big Fish Seafood Grill!


Met up with W.Q today for dinner at Big Fish Seafood Grill!!

I can't remember the exact address, but it's just right beside Pasta Fresca de Salvtore and Megumi!! He drove and we got there through ECP and Bedok, I think.

<3

>_<


For our Appetizers, we had Deep Fried White Bait, Octopus Salad without Salad (special request for us only!) and Escargot Gratin! I'm can't remember the full name of all the food cuz W.Q ordered most of it for me, and his choices in food are never wrong!

<3>

*sigh*

Escargot. In pastry crust with cheese and parsley. Plus other heavenly bits I forgot.

Each bite sent me up to Heaven and back. *swoons*

I have no idea how to describe it's heavenly taste, man. You'll just have to try it to know the FEEELING.

The squid was really yummy, each bite was not too chewy like over cooked ones some restaurant serve, and W.Q requested it without salad.The Fried White Bait was fresh and not oily at all! Didn't even have to squeeze lemons onto it to reduce the oiliness.

Dipped in the tar tar sauce, it was really yummy and apettizing! Cuz usually oily food would just make me feel really full and icky afterwards but this one had none of that!

=D To accompany our seafood, W.Q ordered a Reisling wine, 2007 ( I forgot the name of the Reisling. LOL.)

For a wine so young, it was really sweet and clean on the palate. LOL. It wasn't too dry like some I've tried too.

AND THEN ANOTHER FAVOURITE!

LOBSTER BISQUE WITH CHUNKS OF LOBSTER MEAT INSIDE!!!!!

AND IT WAS VERY FRESH!


*swoons*

For our main course, he had this baked fish in bread crumbs, I think. With asparagus and other veggies under it. LOL.

Blehs. I don't know about his food cuz I was so absorbed in mine, I didn't bother trying his. LOL.



Mine was a fucking creamy and yummy Lobster Ragout! One of their Signature dishes in Big Fish Seafood Grill!!

There were chunks of lobster meat in there too with weirdly juicy and unsoggy tomato bits!

>_< Dessert!!

We both wanted to order Tiramisu at first, but then he was gracious and gave up his Tiramisu for Creme Brulee which I was going to order in place of my Tiramisu too. LOL.
I tried the Creme Brulee and it was perfectly caramalized on the outside, soft and smooth inside!!

With sugar dust and all yummy berries!

The Tiramisu (another signature dish), was really fucking yummy. >_<>

Blueberries, dragon fruit cubes, sstrawberries and preserved plums at the sides. =p~

I ate everything!!
We had great conversations during dinner, and time really flies when you're having a good time! LOL.
WE started dinner at 7pm, but by the time dessert came, it was 9pm!

Long and wonderful dinners are extremely rare, I think. And to find someone whom I can chat and talk with so freely is even rarer these days.

By the time dinner ended for us, it was already closing time at 10pm. LOL.

Three hours! LOL. Took a slow walk to the car park and drove home!

Relationships are hard to deal with, but relationships with other fucking factors like a bitch in the house to interfere when everything's fine makes it tougher. I've ended many would've been wonderful relationships because of the stress faced at home. I haven't been blogging about it nor have I been open about it to people concerned becuase it's just too difficult to talk about it... like, I'm sick and tired of talking and going through the same shit again.

*sigh*

The Queen Bitch is at it again. Stealing into my cousin's Facebook profile and with it, sent insulting messages onto my Facebook. WTF.
I was out dinning with W.Q when X.Y called me to inform me of her misdeamour (??) [I need a stronger word than that.]
I had no choice but to do some damage control once home. Had to delete all her stupid messages before too many people read it, and gave her a piece of my mind.
Sadly, she seems unrepentant and seems set to do more stupid things.
I'll have to deal with her again. That jobless, bored bitch is out to cause more trouble in her free time.

I have had enough of her shit and this has to stop.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

so many thoughts.




ZIRCA AND REBEL ARE BORING!

ARGH!

YESTERDAY'S NIGHT OUT WAS PRETTY SUCKY.

ALEX GOT THE INVITATION INTO ZIRCA but he was underaged, and the fucking club was fucking strict.

So in the end we went into Rebel, where the club was EMPTY at 11pm, and stayed half empty all through the night till 2am.

WTF.

In between, I just went out to meet Vincent to get him to dance with me in Rebel, but he didn't. He danced with me in Zirca instead.

Got to know the baggage girl in Rebel. LOL.

I managed to go into Zirca in the end and the club music sucked. Trance and House didn't pull the crowds to start dancing, and even though the papers hyped it up to be "Las Vegas" style night revenue with dancers and shit, it just didn't happen.

Pathetic.

Vinc and I are like convinced Zirca won't last. LOL.

Rebel can't heck it either.

Cuz nobody would want to pay DOUBLE entry into a club that was a single entity.

Doesn't help that the old Smoove venue's fucking small.

Too many Minahs and weird fucks hanging around Rebel. Not the kinda place I would want to hang out.

Think I'd rather stick to chilling in pubs and bars for now.

No tanning today! Ugh. Sam's sick. Damn it.

BUT! I'll be dinning with my beloved W.Q who just POP-ed on Tuesday. LOL.

Woo~!

Make lemonades out of lemons.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

SICK yet sociable.

TODAY I GOT TO LEARN FUCKING KARL FISCHER!

WTF.

I HATE KARL FISCHER. THE FUCKING MACHINE IS LIKE SEXIST.

It only works when males are fondling it. And it just fucking refuse to work when females touch it.

DAmn it.

Anyway, I've been meeting Justin for almost everyday since Monday, and I've been crying almost everytime when I see him.

It's just totally fucked up. *sigh*

I'll most probably be going to Zirca's club opening tomorrow night if Alex gets the invitations. If not I'll be out dining with W.Q, and on Saturday I'll be tanning at Sentosa with Samson!

<3

Thailand's unrest is getting worse, and I wonder if our Graduation Tour to Thailand in March next year will be affected.

Would we be able to cancel the trip and get our refunds then?

>_<
I'm not crazy about guys at the moment, since those I've gotten to know outside my social circle so far are pretty off the mark.

Sigh. I'm worried about my health.

Couldn't breathe today while doign Seta/crackle. I suspect I've been inhaling too much poisonous fumes even though the test was done in a sort of working fume hood.

How does one know if the fume hood is working properly anyway?

LOL.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Sick and stoned.

Work was blah. Cuz I was too stoned with medication.

I missed the bus today, and Khalis was nice enough to offer me a ride to Boon Lay.

LOL.

I miss bike rides.

Crystalised more things today for the Q.B.

Did 2 angels, for the grave of the E.G.

>_<

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Money Faced.

So I broke up with Justin OFFICIALLY today.

And I was told that he had found a job. So I'm just happy for him that he now has a stable job and that my prayers were answered.

But what makes me so sad right now, is that because of the break up, he has turned against me, calling me a 'liar' and 'money faced'.

Which is as good as saying that I'm a money faced lying bitch.

I don't deny that I love money, cuz money = stability and security for me. (For those who know.) Which are just the peeps from PRCS, ND and Jabie, I think. No one else knows shit, so yeah.

But anyone else whom I've never bothered with explanations won't really know. In case some THINK that they know shitloads about me, it's best I clarify.

I've lost the ability to love someone with my heart, maybe since the first two boyfriends, because when one HAS to find some way to survive, one can't get too fucking emotional.

And yes, I admit, for a period of time, I was out for a boy stable enough to just marry me and get me out of this fucking place.

Isn't that just pathetic?

I don't know. That's just how I feel now.

Maybe those who don't know me will roll their fucking eyes and say "Oh, please." But yeah, that's how I feel.

And I just don't like the fact that Justin wasn't gracious when we broke up and yet kept trying to make me feel bad just because I felt that I had to tell him that I have no feelings for him anymore.

Ugh.

NOW AT FUCKING 3AM HE WANTS TO PATCH UP?!

WTF.

I don't know what he fucking wants from me anymore.

Perhaps just for me to die of a slow torturous disease or for me to burn in eternal damnnation. I suppose that's waht he wants since he's petty by nature.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

"The male fox will mate for life, and if the female dies, he remains single for the rest of his life. However, if the male dies, the female will hook up with a new mate."

I'm down with severe sore throat and I've lost the ability to speak. My head feels like it's spinning, and I can't breathe right.

T_T

I'm mute for the day...
and away from work!

Funny how all doctors assume I smoke though I've never touched those cancer sticks.

UGH!

Monday, November 17, 2008

Manic Monday.

Learnt Soot today.

Shitloads of samples. Broke my nails again. Had to handover my leftovers (samples were impossible to complete).

Met Justin for dinner.

I cried.

Because I'm scared of being with him when he's jobless. (Call me materialistic or shallow, whatever.)

TO me, money is important. A job is important. Without a job, with no savings, no money, there's hardly anyway to survive in Singapore.

And even with plans to immigrate, YOU STILL NEED MONEY TO RELOCATE.

SO yeah. I'm money minded.

I dream to be a tai tai. SO sue me. At least I admit and don't deny.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Food, loads of food!

Met up with W.Q today for lunch and movie E!Hub, and once again, he DROVE. LOL.

I find it super cute and lazy when both of us live like a few blocks away from each other and E!Hub's only a 10 minute walk away. But I still like that little creature comfort anyway.

=p

Lunch at Buddy Haogies sucked. The food tasted bland and was over priced.

Their salmon pasta tasted like some zhi char Hokkien mee, and worst still, it was so bland that I couldn't even taste the Salmon. -.-!!!



Their Hoagies were levels below Burger King's and it cost twice as much.



Their rosti was soggy.



We shouldn't have tried Buddy Hoagie's. I shouldn't have suggested trying it out. Bad choice. Should've stuck to New York New York.



Anyway, Quantum of Solace was kinda nice, but too short to make it shiok.



Treated W.Q to Fondue at Fondu on level 1, and their fondue was pretty good!

So I made a bad choice on the lunch venue and a good one for dessert.

=D

Happy day.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Long blog post.

Pictures of the day Justin gave me back his watch.

Dinner at Riverside Point's Brewerkz.

Something that relates to me. (Justin gave me this link today.)


- Beyonce Knowles Lyrics

Friday was spent clubbing with Darren and his 20 over Airforce mates at Phuture.

Dancing all over, downing liquors in jugs, it was fucking fun.

=x

Night ended around 3am in the club. Beers and chit chat by the bench, drunk men by the sidewalk, puke all over. LOL.

I like nights like these sometimes. As long as the puker isn't me, and I'm just watching.

Some girl's boyfriend went off with another girl while she went to a corner and cried. Tragic. Sometimes it's best for a girl to be prepared when she agrees to club with her boy. =.=...

Airforce guys ARE Hot.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Excessive blood loss kills.

Took a cab to work again.

I'm getting from broke to fucking pennyless.

Bad day.

I'm tres emofique.

=(

I woke up late at 6:30am, had to rush and cab to work, and then I realised that my fucking safety shoes were no longer safe cuz the front half of my soles CAME OFF.

WTF.

Then there were shitloads of samples to deal with and I broke my nails again in the process of the rush. (God, I felt like taking MC and skipping work, but I didn't.) I just couldn't seem to complete all those 400 samples all at once.

But I somehow managed, and only handed over the key-in and slot-ins to the afternoon shift.

I think I've somehow lost my lucky star along the way yesterday and now everything doesn't seem to go so well.

But life still has to go on, and I've got great online friends to help cheer me up.

I'm going to go out with Darren on Friday to club and get all drunk and high, and maybe I'll feel happy.

My TP is tomorrow and I really wish/hope/pray that I pass. I really need to start driving myself around, or I'll go crazy without my own transport.

*sigh*

I wish JB will be free to accompany me tomorrow since JT is no longer around.

=(

I need to shop for new safety shoes.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Single. (I've got acid and alkaline burns.)

After 4 straight days of quarrelling and misunderstandings, we broke up.

His screams and shouts and blabberings bounced off me like soft balls to wall.

It left little marks and it didn't seem to affect me.

I suppose work has drained me and numbed me up. Like anesthesia before the operation. Conscious yet unfeeling.

We left in opposite directions and the nearer I got to home, the anesthesia seemed to wear off and emotions sipped in a little.

7 months didn't seem such a long time with him, and yet I didn't feel very much in love.
(Any idea how it feels like? Let me know.)

I've merely been jumping from one guy to the other, lead by wandering lust and in seek of excitement, and some survival instincts.

>_<

I'VE REALISED THAT ALL I WANTED WAS FOR HIM TO PROTECT ME... from EVERYTHING.

But of course he couldn't. And I kept ending up wearing the pants and going through the same shit I had with all the other guys I've been with.

I think right now I'm fucking tempted to go back to him because of sympathy and the refusal to let go of the past, but I shouldn't. Because I don't think I love him.

Realise I keep thinking, but I don't feel.

WHY??????

I'm in need of a big big hug. Anything to put me back in that purple bubble again.

=(

P.S: Learnt TAN and TBN today!! (something to smile about?)

Sunday, November 9, 2008

The jaded faded frog.

I'm fucking emo and bloody wary of the people around me.



The frog prince who used to grace clean and green ad campaigns (those who used to see it will know the smiley frog on that damed lilly pad), finally came out of his smelly bin hole.



And he doesn't look as green as he used to.

The years has done him in.

The shrunken, faded, jaded frog.

*sigh*

Saturday, November 8, 2008

I think I no longer like Justin.

Situations have been pushing me towards a direction of apathy and dislike.

Maybe it's the hormones. Or the fact that we've been apart for too long without effective communication.

I don't know... but right now I just feel very apathetic. Too tired to give a damn.

Anyway, I managed to complete all SETA and Crackle tests today and the shift leader was very surprised.

=.=!!

Went out with Wan, Aein, Khalis and Madina after work to celebrate Madina's end of internship in the company.

=p

Had dinner at Bugis' Seoul Garden, and then Wan drove us to Arab street where they smoked Shisha and we played games.

Obviously, I declined to smoke it, and supported Aein to decline the offer as well.

LOL. Khalis was freaking cute!!

We were at Seoul Garden eating right, and he went to take this extremely small portion of Coffee Chicken for himself. LOL, I mean it's nothing wrong, but we were expecting him to like take more to share or try other varieties.

And when we told him to go 'take more', he went on to take a HUGE plate of COFFEE CHICKEN, when we meant to 'take more variety of meat'. LOL.

And he was just super cute when we were playing games la!

LOL.

Cute little boy.

His actions just made our day in the yucky lab!!

=D

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Charred fingers.

Finally, I'm taught something new. But the stupid vacuum used to suck off used oil was poorly insulated and in the end it fucking cooked my finger tips.

Grr.

Anyway, I managed to complete the tests required, so it wasn't so bad.

At least I learnt something new! I can't tolerate being sidelined and put to do the basics while some are allowed to move on and learn new things.

*sigh*

We, interns are so scummy that the company D&D only offered us a chance to join when there were left over space in the cruise. ughness.

Anyway, they asked me as a last resort, I think, and I politely declined, of course, cuz I won't want to mix and mingle too much and end up with some shit for them to hurl at me.

Today alone, I was accused to doing mistakes MADE BY OTHERS TWICE!

>_<

But it's ok. I'll grin and bear it.

Three months and two weeks more to go.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

BORED phuck

I'm irrevocably bored.

Extremely, Utterly, BORED.

I haven't got any mood to blog either.

Something, SOMEONE, please, intrigue me.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

<3 HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!

WOOHOO~!

HALLOWEEN WAS SO FUCKING FUN!!

TOO BAD I DIDN'T GET TO CLUB ON HALLOWEEN BEFORE!!

I'M SO GONNA CELEBRATE HALLOWEEN FROM NOW ON!

WOOHOO~!

Work on Halloween was boring, because there wasn't much work, and I had to go look for sai gang to do to keep myself occupied and away from sitting around gossiping like the others!

Ugh, they were like sitting in the lab chit chatting loudly while the boss was away, and I was like the only idiot packing samples and cleaning the stupid lab.

grr...

I could've sat around telling tales of my life, but I guess I just wasn't interested in ruining my reputation as the 'player' in the lab unlike others.

LOL.

Anyway, I was so fucking psyched about the AFTERHOURS, that I couldn't just sit still.

=D

M was like fucking late in meeting me, and in the end Justin and I went to rent a room to slack, eat and change and hung around SMU until 10pm before I cabbed down to meet him at Zouk with his friend!

Ughness!!

When we arrived at Zouk, the queue was so fucking long, it was impossible for us to go in!! We queued for like 15 minutes and decided it was better for us to head down to Attica where their friends were.

LOL.

In that 15 minutes of queueing, we got like 10 people asking to take a picture with us!!

Woop~!

Apparently there were hardly anyone dressed up as cops!! And I guess I was kinky enough. LOL.

=.=!

On the way out of Zouk, we saw this group dressed as PAP!! ROFL!!

All white, WITH MISS JAOQUIM ORCHID GARLANDS AND a freaking clipboard!!

They fucking walked and waved at me and I just saluted them. ROFL.

=D

The PAPs were my favourite costume!!

We cabbed down to Attica, and on the way to there, ( we were walking around Clark Quay for a bit), shitloads of people came and asked to take more pictures with us!!

For a moment there, I felt like a tourist's attraction. LOL.

And then the fun parts came!!

We went to Attica and walked to the queue, but then the bouncer came up to us and was lilke, "M'am, sir, you two, GO right in front of the queue." *macho thumb action.*

!!!

I was like, Ooh, okays. LOL.

And then we got to cut the damn queue and entered the club free and easy!!

But his friend went to the loo and got stuck. He wasn't allowed to enter the club and in the end we had to buy a bottle to go in!

LOL. Actually, I didn't pay for the bottle la. LOL.

Free party~!

Danced, danced, dranks shots!!

The three of us finished the whole bottle we bought, and his other friend came and we downed like 6 shots each or something, I can't remember.

It came in a BIG BOWL of Shredded ice with test tubes containing the shots!!

TEST TUBES!!

Yes, I think we drank Test tubes.

Yummilicious fruity shit.

<3

Took shitloads of pitures with strangers and lost our props in the process. LOL.

I lost my furry handcuffs, he lost his wig, and his friend lost his MASK!!

But it wasn't as bad though, cuz I saw credit cards, jackets, and other disemembered monster parts on the floor (tails, wings, and random tentacle limbs). LOL.

We partied till 5am, and kinda gave up finding our things ever, cuz I guess some guys picked our things up and used it as props for a kinky afterparty. LOL.

Handcuffed, masked and wigged.

LOL.

Our party ended at around 5am, and we were sitting outside by the club when this MIDDLE AGED CAUCASIAN AROUND 50?! tried to pick me up. LOL.

Too bad I was too stoned to bother.

And I kinda hate being picked up by Caucasians.

LOL.

Cab fare home was almost $40 cuz I was in a Chrysler. Christ. So fucking expensive! But the seats were comfy and there was music.

I slept in the cab. LOL.

Can't wait for them to send me the pictures!

<3

Thursday, October 30, 2008

O.o

Everyone was PMS-y in the lab today.

It was pretty bad.

4 were absent including August, and it got pretty busy in the middle of work.

My stupid machine was PMS-y too, and some people had to come down to get it fixed or something.

In the end I couldn't finish my samples and I feel so damn paranoid about my work.

ARGH!

I just hope the leftovers will be completed by the second shift.

ARGH!

Anyway, we went to Kembangan for dinner today, and we had Thosai, Murtabak and Naan.

The food wasn't very nice this time round and there were leftovers.

*sigh*

Today's all about leftovers.

T_T

*jumbled htouhgts*

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Wonderments.

Browsing through facebook, one wonders how connected one is to each other. Connected in the virtual sense. But physically, in reality, we're all but strangers.

How often does one really greet each other 'Hi' when we bump into our 'friends' on Friendster, Facebok or Myspace??

How often does one even acknowledge each other on the streets?

Fake friends aplenty.

And even though we're all regularly bombarded with updates from each other online, how often does one go all out to ask him/her how things REALLY are in person?

Think about it.

Honestly, how sincere are you in making friends with a certain person you've added online??

Are you sincerely interested in keeping connected and updated with the person in real life relationship wise, or you are sincerely interested in keeping connected virtually to boost your online fake friend numbers and updated regularly so that you may snoop and lookout for gossip and converstaion fodder??

I HAVE MANY COOL FRIENDS!!

Because I have 1299 interesting friends(ster) (profiles) online!!

Well, go fuck yourself because you know nothing about half the 1299 friends you have ONLINE.

Monday, October 27, 2008

The understanding and trusting guy I once had, had disappeared overnight and in turn has become an overly jealous and over possessive person.

Out of a sudden, in 2 nights, he wants a break up, and requested it thrice.

Something must be up...

I don't wish to think that he might have done something regrettable or whatever, but it's just all fucking suspicious.

All I wanted to do was to fulfill my promise to club with *name removed as requested* for a night on Halloween, and he blew up.

It's not as if I haven't mentioned it to him before.

*sigh*

Sunday, October 26, 2008

I'm soo tired!

Fun times!

We went to W.Q's, to chat and drink, with loads of chips and liquor!

=D

I fell asleep on the couch when Y.Z.H arrived around 12am to play Magic the Gathering with the guys because it got pretty boring, and I couldn't seem to catch up with their chatter.

*sigh*

Attachment has done me in.

For once, I was the first to bug them to go home. LOL.

But no one gave a fuck about me!! They were too engrossed in their card games.

=(

I had to nap till 4am and bug W.Q to walk me home!!

On the way we bought supper for the two bums at the 24 hours coffee shops, and I went home alone.

RAWR~!

But the three of us, F, W.Q et moi, managed to finish a bottle of J.D and Ichigo Sake and I think half a bottle of Souju.

*faints*

Halloween's THIS COMING FRIDAY!!!

And I want to party.

>_<

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Quinsy is so fat. When she jumps for joy, she gets stuck.

Went on an aimless ride after driving lessons and somehow got lost. The bus driver stopped by the road side to pee when there were two female passengers on board. ROFL.

Like, WTF?!

He took a while before deciding to loop around. But he still missed my bus stop. WTF.

So in the end it took me 2 hours to get home.

Sigh.

Random thoughts: If monkeys were evolved from men, then is it right to say that monkeys without, men are nothing?

And that monkeys = men. and since monkeys are zoo animals, men = entertaining creatures too?

Hmm...

">_<"

Anyway, I can't seem to find any website that sells Swarovski flatbacked crystals at good prices.

Haiz.

FUCKING BUSY AND TIRED!

I'VE BEEN TOO DAMN BUSY AND TIRED TO BLOG!!

Work is literally shitty when I have to avoid people out to 'arrow' me, but I've made some new friends in the process!!

Now I have lunch buddies and break companions and work becomes easier and much less taxing in a way.

I've somehow managed to learn a few advanced tests (even though we're not supposed to) which require loads of waiting and nothing much else and I'm glad I get to do basic tests which are slightly more 'action packed'. (Read: More things to do repetitively for hundreds of samples, less waiting time, which kinda makes time fly faster.)

I wish I have time to buy crystals to pimp my things up, since my crystals ran out and I'm stuck with incomplete work, but I guess it's not possible for me to do all that this few months since the stupid shops are always closed at 6:30pm and not open on Public Holidays.

ARGH.

Social Events: Went out with Jabie for dinner before driving lessons on Thursday and went out to chill with Feonna yesterday at Vivocity!! LOL. We went shopping at Daiso. ROFL.

Driving in a bit and then I'm off to chill with Jack Daniels, Farhan and W.Q~!

LOL.

<3

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE GRADUATION TOUR CUZ FEONNA AND ALEX MONISH IS GOING!!!

NOW I HAVE BED COMPANION (FEONNA, NOT ALEX, MIND YOU.) AND SHOPPING KAKI AND A CLUBBING BUDDY!!

WOOHOO~!

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Quiz~~

1) What is the connection between you and the last person who called you?
Jabie, the Ex.

2) Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Hardly Ever. It's only off when the phone runs out of battery.

3) What happened at 10.00 am today?
I was still in bed, sleeping.

4) When did you last cry?
On Wednesday, when the 'three wise men' came down to frazzle me.

5) What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
I love eating peanut butter with a spoon, digging those yummilicious contents straight out of the jar!!!

6) What do you want in your life right now?
Loads of money and joy and peace. And maybe a knife to stab those assholes.

7) Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, walk in the rain or just put up your hood?
I would carry an umbrella when it rains, if I was at home when the rain occurs. But if I were to suspect rain, I would just wear a hoodie and hood up. =)

8 ) When were you born?
20th March 1988

9) What bottom are you wearing now?
Boxers.

10) What does the nicest text in your inbox say?
You're the reason why I want to push myself forward and reach my potential for the future.

11) Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
I don't make relationships complicated. The third party and outsiders complicates the relationship.

12) Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No. I've almost never borrowed any clothes from anyone. It's the others who borrow from me and refuse to return. *stabs bitch who took my cheongsam.*

13) What was the last movie you caught?
Max Payne.

14) What are you proud of?
My patience and ability to make and create beautiful things, my little technical abilities.

15) What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Good Mornin'

16) What was the last song you sang out loud?
That's not my name by the Ting Tings. LOL. Sang it with my sisters.

17) Do you have any nicknames?
Quinsy.

18 ) Are you currently happy?
No.

19) Who gives you best advices?
No one.

20) Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Yes I do! Sometimes you just need something to cheer yourself up.

21) Is anything bugging you right now?
Yes. I'm bugged by the fact that some people are using my blog against me.

22) What/Who was the last thing/ person that made you laugh?
That bunch of guy friends whom I hang out and meet regularly for gatherings at Swensen's. LOL.

23) Do you wear toe socks?
Er, NO.

24) Who was the last person you missed a call from?
The Father Figure.

25) Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes.

26) What annoys you most in a person?
Stupidity? Arrogance. Arrogance bugs me.

27) Do you have a crush on anyone?
No.

28 ) Have you ever done cocaine?
No.

29) What is the colour of your room?
Beige.

30) Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
Yes. I would gladly do so.

31) Who was the last person to lie on your bed?
Me.

32) Who was the last person to hug you?
Farhan. I needed that hug.

33) Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
Yes.

34) Do you have a life?
YES I DO. Even during attachment. I believe in an all rounded lifestyle. LOL.

35) Have you ever thought someone died when they actually didn’t?
Yes. I dreamt that Grandma died and I was so sad.

36) What is the reason behind your profile song?
I don't think I have a profile song.

37) Who was the last person you saw in your dreams?
Those people in the lab picking on me.

38 ) Last time you smiled?
In the morning when Shorty woke me up.

39) Have you changed this year?
Change is always happening. The only difference is the significance of the change that occured.

40) What are you listening to right now?
Nothing. Silence is music in itself.

41) Are you talking to someone when you’re doing this?
No.

42) Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
Closed ONLY when I'm extremely tired.

43) Are there quotes you live by?
'Live fast, Die Young.'

44) Do you want someone you can’t have?
Don't think so.

45) Have you ever played an instrument?
Recorder, Guitar and the Keyboard when I was in Primary and Secondary school.

46) What was the worst idea you’ve had in this week?
Kill myself and make someone responsible for my depression?

47) What were you doing last night at 11.00 pm?
I was at Swensen's with my ex Biology teacher and my bunch of good guy friends. =D

48 ) Are you happy with your love life right now?
He's too damn far away and too damn broke. Am I happy?

49 ) What song describes your love life?
I rarely listen to music.

50) Does the person knows you like him/ her?
Yes he does but he's too damn far away.

51) Who always makes you laugh?
No one in particular.

52) Do you speak another language other than English?
Mandarin

53) Are you blonde?
NO.

54) Your middle name?
Don't have one.

5) What are you doing tomorrow?
Off to work in a damned lab.

56) What do you think you are like?
Critical, Withdrawn and Daring.

57) Who will you choose to die with?
I would choose to die alone with no one around me. Unless someone I truly love appears and he's willing to die with me.

8 ) Where have you been today?
Nowhere.

59) What game do you play often?
Viwawa's Sushido and Wahjong.

60) Who are you missing right now?
Justin, my Grandparents and someone else who has yet to appear in my life yet.

61) If you were to choose between friends and love, who will you choose?
I would choose my love.

62) What are you doing right now?
Doing this quiz.

63) Which primary school were you from?
Kong Hwa School.

64) List 3 colours that you like.
Black, Silver, Purple.

65) What emotion do you like to show?
No emotions.

66) What is life to you?
Life is acheiving your goals and living it happily sans regret. But my life is filled with hate.


67) If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Bottle it up and find therapy in other means.

68) Who did you last chat with in MSN today?
Vincy, Ard, Feonna,PTT.

69) Who do you admire most?
I admire no one.

70) How are you feeling right now?
Ambivalence.

71) What is the time now?
6:36pm.

72) Where are you now?
In my room.

73) What colour did you use to dye your hair?
L'Oreal. Fire Engine Red and Coppertone. Long Long time ago.

74) Why are you doing this test?
Trying to get those negative emotions out of me.

75) What do you do when you’re moody?
I do some beading, crystallize some gadgets, ask some guys out for drinks, and look at pretty things. If not I'll just take a kitchen knife and sharpen it many times.

76) At which age do you wish to get married?
24-26. When that someone special has enough money and is ready to settle down.

77) Who is more important to you, friends or family?
Relatives.

78 ) Do you think you have enough confidence?
Enough to face many things alone.

79) Who is the person you trust the most?
I trust no one but myself.

80) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
I'm skeptical.

81) If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
Be rich and happy, worry free.

82) What is your goal for this year?
Get through the year alive, save enough money, get a driving license, and party on!

83) Do you believe in eternal love?
I don't think that's possible for me. Though I do believe in long term partnership till death do us part.

84) What feeling do you love most?
The calm before the war. The white flames of anger.

85) Do you really think it’s Global Warming now?
It's already happening.

86) What feeling do you hate the most?
Weakness, sadness and trust.

87) Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yes i do.

88 ) Do you believe in God?
Yes.

89) Who cares for you the most?
I don't know. Nobody really cares for me, I feel.

90) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Money, stability, and someone trustworthy.

91) What will you bring when you fight?
A gun.

92) What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
Throwing somethings away out of anger, and losing self control.

93) How would you feel to know that no one no longer cares for you?
Alone. But I'll still survive like I've always done.

94) What will you do if your stead two-timed you?
I called her up, screamed at the girl, and demanded an explanation from the guy. Screamed at him and slapped him in the restaurant. Dumped him.

95) What are the thing(s) you will never do?
Do drugs and smoke.

Social Events for the past few days!!

Woop~!



I've been socially 'active' since Thursday and it made me feel pretty good going out and meeting my beloved friends!!



Wednesday was driving lessons, so I spent the night after work driving and knocking down poles while reverse parallel parking.



Thursday was spent eating dinner with Adrian and drinking at this Joo Chiat Mando lup sup bar and playing pool while Vietnamese prostitutes looked on and hooked up with Retired, Rich Uncles.



Friday was spent with Wei Qiang after I'd somehow wander my way home from Boon Lay where the 7pm minivan uncle dropped me off, and gotten ready to meet W.Q who drove us from my house to Downtown East for Max Payne. ROFL.



When two lazy bums get together, they do the silliest things for little creature comforts like DRIVING 100m for a movie when we could've easily walked and saved on parking as well. LOL.



Anyway, Max Payne was so-so. Pretty expected and action packed for movie adapted from a game.



Saturday was great cuz we (W.Q, Pillai, James, David, K.E, YZH and I) met up with Mrs Lim for Swensen's dinner!!



MY FAVOURITE BIOLOGY TEACHER!!



Amazing how we can still sit down and chit chat from 7pm till midnight!! We almost missed the last bus and last train home!!! LOL.



LOVES~~!



Then Farhan was supposed to come down for dinner too but he was out with his family, so I met him after that for some drinks and chit chat!!



We bought a bottle of Jack Daniels and Coke Zero (which, by the way, go amazingly well together without that very sugary taste that I don't really like), and chatted in Pasir Ris Park till 3am!!



Then we called YZH and went down to EastVale to talk somemore till 5am!! LOL.



I was so tired when I got home, I literally passed out on my bed. LOL.



Happiness!!!



I super love my secondary school mates!!

<3



Anyway, I woke up this morning refreshed, and got down to completely zhng my DBS thingy which I had done the previous time but the crystals came off due to partial adhesion.



So THIS is the complete product!!!



=D