Jezebel from Hell.

Brought Justin to church today and a certain preacher did the sermons.

He spoke of choosing the right spouse and getting directions from God.

LOL. Something he said made J think I was Jezebel. WTF. =.=

And then I did an 'Emily Rose' during Altar Call which was really really weird though I felt fine.

The preacher was perceptive in a way that she knew there was something wrong and touched my tummy to 'expel evil spirits', though I wasn't really aware of what I was doing.

I fell to the ground while they prayed, like a fallen tree, but I didn't feel pain. O.o

I think my heart has turned so cold and hard that even the pastor said I was a work in progress.

Looks like I'm really hard to sway...

Back to the Phillipines!

I CAN'T FUCKING STAND THAT USELESS FAT MAID ANYMORE.

I finally went down to the polyclinic this afternoon and got my ass fingered by a female doctor with a PERMANENTLY SHOCKED look on her face.

It started pouring heavily and the clinic got flooded ON THE SECOND AND FIRST FLOOR.

WTF.

I waddled my way through the clinic only to realise that I didn't bring an umbrella along and couldn't risk walking through the rain with my laptop in tow!

(I was watching Gossip Girl!)

So I called the maid, only to hear her SCREAM AND COMPLAIN AND GIVE SHITLOADS OF EXCUSES ABOUT WHY SHE CAN'T STEP OUT OF THE HOUSE IN THE RAIN.

WTF.

I got fed up and called the Father Figure and told him I'm paying for her ticket HOME.

I'll be going for a follow up at CGH on the 11th March after the Thailand trip.

Death Sentence.

I was duped to go to Recruit Express to look for a recruiter who didn't exist yesterday, and was in a very foul mood after that.

Justin cheered me up with dinner at Pizza Hut.

Apparently, his fast eating speed with cheese powder + chilli flake literally poured over his pizza gave him some serious diahorrea issues at night but all is well today.

I couldn't sleep last night and stayed up the whole night until 3am, watching Gossip Girl and spacing out with weird thoughts in my head.

Anyway, I started passing out blood since this morning before the interview, and it's not stopping anytime soon, it seems.

It might be the hereditary tumour genes working its magic now, but I'm not too sure yet.

From my vast experience with cancer relatives, I think it is cancer of the colon. Or on a slightly less pessimistic perspective, a little tumour.

Either way, I'll have to make an appointment and get a check up tomorrow.

Wish me well... or not.

Another day, broke and jobless.

I'm pretty fed up with being broke.

But I'm not about to hop down to the bank to withdraw my money.

*Sigh*

I wish I had my 2 month's pay now. Mr Ng called this morning for a reconfirmation if it was true that the company was with holding our pay. (I had posted on Facebook that I've yet to receive 2 month's pay.)

Oh well, I wasn't lying and Aien reconfimed it as well.

SO yeah.

I really wish the money would be sent to us by monday the latest. If not I don't know how I'm going to survive without any spending money.


Tragic.

I really want to buy that Braun Buffel bag. T_T

There's 20% off right now and the last time I checked on Monday, the bag was left with the LAST piece!

T_T

I'm not going to plan for anything huge this year since my parties are always a flop and Justin most probably can't afford to even treat me a nice meal.

The fact that people in the house can't wait to evict me doesn't make things better.

I'm in a very precarious state right now...

I was so bored.

Being jobless has little benefits. Other than the huge amount of free time on my hands, there's little else good about it.

Because the bloody company still owes us 2 months of pay, I'm bloody broke.

And because I'm broke, I've resorted to staying home and watching downloaded movies online.

*sigh*

Anyway, I went out with my favourite cousin today for some LAN gaming. Been awhile since we went out together.

The LAN shop she brought me was pretty shady but cheap. Loads of students went there, and old farty men camped out on the sweaty smelling computer chairs with cup noodles all over the desk top.

(I disinfected my hand with loads of soap and water once home. You never know what's left on those keyboards!)

Dinner was delicious as usual at Grand's. I have yet to dislike the food she cooks. LOL.

I even packed a whole pot of Lor Bak home since food cooked by the useless maid is just unpalatable.

*sigh*

And like a long drawn Korean drama...

Like a long drawn Korean Drama, I'm still stuck with the same ass.

Spent over a hundred on his birthday dinner on Friday 13th, and he bought me a bouquet of roses costing more than that for just 24 stalks, loads of fillers and a teddy bear.

But what else can I say but I loved the roses and I somehow managed to forgive??

And the old hag tries to bite back.

Apparently she felt that the use of the family name while scolding him was disrespectful.

So your son isn't part of the family?

The only reason why he deserved such honorable mention was due to his utter lack of ability to comprehend how severe his words had twisted my character as a person.

Despicable.

It's the only word I could think of.

Not only had he crossed the line, he had boldly overstepped the boundaries despite repeated warnings.

But the irony in the situation is that not only does his mother think he's right, he (and his mother) thinks that I'm the bad person trying to twist and ruin his reputation!

Geez man.

It's a fact he had borrowed money from me, insulted me and attempted to use lies as the basis for an arguement which honestly, hurt me alot.

It still hurts and that anger has made me despise him as a person.

TSK.

Anyway, tomorrow's THE day for me to test out my laptop at the final year presentation venue and I'll be meeting Aien for McBreakfast!

=D

I cannot tolerate a man who insults me as a person and a woman.

A man who cannot hold his tongue and mind his language and behaviour in my presence will hold no place in my heart.

Spreading salacious rumours around and bad mouthing me behind my back while pretending to be the ever good boyfriend is just DESPICABLE.

Justin T, you should know what you've done.

It's no longer about the speaking of other girl's names in your sleep nor the amount of money borrowed from me.

This has gotten way more personal than personal can be.

JOB SEARCH IS ON!

I've been sending out numerous resumes and a few has called me back!

I'm really looking forward to this particular interview for the position of a Sales Engineer!!


=D

Thank God I'd perservered and gotten my license, cuz it was one of the prerequisites!!

WOOHOO!!!

And it seems they pay WAYYYY better than a lab analyst!

I can't remember the name of the medical company in Yishun and Tuas. Reeding or bidding or some shit like that. Ugh.

>_<

The Father Figure was behind us.

I can just pray everything is alright after all those questioning.

Oh Lord help me! You know my troubles. AMEN!

Twitching...

My eyelids has been twitching non stop since Friday and I can't seem to make it go away.

It's distracting, and has made concentration difficult especially when sight is involved.

I'm literally going bonkers trying to stop the twitch!!

Anyway, today was pretty fruitful with church and visitation of Dehui's house. Her mother made really delicious vermicelli noodles though one would usually associate vermicelli as bland!

I think what made it so flavourful was the prawns she threw in and cooked with eggs and some seasoning.

hmm...

I realised that her mom was pretty conscious of the food brands though for me as long as the food is nice, just eat!

Brought J along for visitation and he seemed pretty happy.

He tried to carry me but sprained his wrist doing so. It just shows how fat I've become.

=(

*sigh*

Job is scarce and I've taken desperate measures to get one. I've even applied to be a teacher. Though I wonder if they would ever want me as a future teacher is something else.

LOL.

I might just strangle a kid or two. =x

KIDDING.