Having bad acid reflux right now. Can't sleep with all that acid fighting to get out of me.

Spent the whole day with love after settling work.

And my phone is finally full of music I actually like, (all thanks to D's extensive music library) and not music ripped off an ex's music library.

XD

Anyway, I love talking to him. We had dinner at 112 Katong's Sushi Tei and I over ordered. The waitress was nice enough to tell me that I had ordered enough to feed 4 person and I reduced the order by half, I think. Lol.

But we still couldn't finish the food because it was simply too much!

D allows me to order whatever I want and it has worked so far.

I suppose I was too hungry. Lol.

We took a stroll along East Coast after our super filling dinner, and talked a lot. I haven't had such good conversations in a long time. And it's all good because we can't get enough of each other and we communicate a lot.

XD

Anyway, I was super happy today cuz I got to fuss over him and made him

1. Shave his mustache.
2. Use the facial foam I got him. I was very upset when he lied to me that he had used it when he hadn't. I mean, I know has not finished his old facial foam but there is no need to lie to me about it! If he can lie to me over a tube of facial foam, I don't see why he won't lie to me over bigger things! Like cheating behind my back etc! I digress.

3. Squeeze pimples out of his nose! It's hugely satisfying when I see all that crappy toothpaste pus ooze out of his nose! ( I think I maybe perverse in this manner! )

4. Made him buy anti dandruff shampoo and wash his hair properly! Clean head! Yay!

This week I'll make him go for his facial and then the following week, his dental appointment!

Happiness! I love fussing over him!!

Stupid drunk.

I haven't a clue what happened last night after visiting ET's place. ( HIS YAM PASTE WAS AWESOME! )

I'm still trying to piece the night together.

For starters, some fucking Merc driver clipped my baby's car.

Then we sat on buggies to Villa 3.

Drank shitloads the moment we got into the villa.

Ben and Azri broke a basin. I KO-Ed Ivan with a shot of Absinthe.

Daryl and Ivan played the guitar.

We sang and jammed.

I got pushed into the pool.

Swam with JX.

And shuffled with Ben.

Everything else is a blur.

I was told I jumped on D in full view of everyone.

I don't know what the fuck I did.

I need a hug from him so badly now.

A real orgy with loads of food and alcohol would have been more appropriate, judging by the way I partied.

Lol.

But in this conservative party, I'm better off drowning myself in the pool.

He's asleep, and I'm eating my Hangover for breakfast.

I'd feel bad if I were to spam his Whatsapp with my messages. So I'll blog instead.

In his own time he will read my blog anyway.

I love him a lot. More than I could say everyday and every night, every waking moment of my life.

Oh so very much. More than Dash Berlin, more than clubbing, more than alcohol.

He was so dashing last night. I couldn't stop staring at him.

Grrr...

I really think our love is meant to be.

XoChivasMartell,

Q.

If I had your kid, I'd fucking keep it.

(Maybe I'm drunk.)

If you forced me to abort it or Start treating me differently because you resent the birth of the baby, then you were never worth rage effort anyway.

I played and left a good man.
I went with the playmate and got played.

I took a long break, and now I'm with another played man.

So does two played person together cancel out the past hurts?

Or will the played man play me and leave me hurt again?

(I shouldn't be having such thoughts on a bloody Saturday morning!)

((Blame it on my hormones.))

I left my wallet in Daryl's car and woke up this morning with worried messages from him. <3.

I had to beg Tally to lend me $10 to travel for the appointment.

Went for root canal alone at NDC and had them bill me first with payments later.

Went through the entire procedure without anesthesia for 2 hours. Only slight discomfort was felt. The dentist thought I was a SIA stewardess with my SQ nails!

*glee*

Anyway, the sensitivity only struck at night. (Which is why I'm blogging!)

Went home straight after the procedure.

Masked my face and promptly fell asleep. Lol.

Woke up with mask on face and a bunch of missed calls.

Met Love at the car park to get my wallet and we went to the park for a stroll. XD

Love!!!

I love it when he squeezes time out for me!

Got home around 8pm and baked Brownies with Hershey's and Bailey's Irish Cream!

It's delicious!!

I know he likes Fruity Light Flavoured cakes but I had no fruits at home and Fruit Tart would take up an entire day to bake from scratch!

Did my nails after baking and washing up, crystallizing it with my AB swarovskis.

Mad love!

I wish he would never leave me or stop loving me, because his absence is my greatest fear.

one day he'll get tired of me and it will all fade away...

(Negativity gets to me.)

You never fail to reassure, you never fail to support.

You bring out that silly side of me that was hidden so well over the years, I forgot its existence.

I surprise us around you.

Only you have that effect on me.

<3

So bogged down by money problems, I can't sleep.

Coughing my lungs out in the middle of the night.

This is not good.

Met up with WQ today. He got hotter, I got fatter. We still click very well, and meals with him is never boring.

Perhaps if I was able to convince The Tormentors to let me study in Australia, our lives would have been different.

But I'm glad I'm with Daryl now. He's such an intellectual. And I love him so much! My palms sweat just thinking about him. >.
Bought him a facial session at Beyond Beauty and some pre ordered pineapple tarts to take home today.

But I got a little pissed off when he didn't help me sort out the tarts knowing that I would take the wrong ones by mistake when I'm bedazzled.

Urgh!

Anyway, WQ brought me to Sake Inn after lunch and I bought a bottle of Sake with Gold Flakes!

It's so pretty!!!!

I was supposed to buy CNY clothes but I'd already spent my entire budget on lunch, sake, facial, and tarts.

And I had no time to shop around Chinatown for my new Cheong Sam.

So FML, I'm not buying any new clothes this CNY.

I need a higher paying job. This job is barely paying my bills and feeding me.

I've sucked my savings dry and I'm done.

The next job that is offered, I will take.

Fuck it.

Highly frustrated. Especially with high monthly bills and heftier medical bills that I have to cough up money from God knows where to pay.

If only money could just drop from the bloody sky and pay all my fucking bills.

Or just kill me. At least I won't die in debt cuz my insurance payout would clear it all off.

My life is now cheap. Please take it and end my misery.

FUCK.

He sat with me in class today. I could barely stop myself from grinning.

I thought he would want me to sit away from him, but I was really elated when we could sit together.

Really needed a drink to think during Robert's class but I know D won't be happy if I did.

Bought mineral water instead. But fuck, I was so stressed out my neck started to ache.

I think I do have a slight alcohol dependency.

Eugene Low tempted me with clubbing at St James to celebrate David Wong's birthday. But the insecurity that would run through his mind isn't worth it at all.

My hormones are acting up for sure. aching tits and cheese and chocolate cravings screams period ahoy!

Maybe it's the lack of alcohol in my system. Feels weird to be without alcohol for days at a stretch.

Too sober.

Is it stupid if I try to make myself not swoon whenever I see him? Though deep down I'm absolutely crazy over him.

Ughs. Maybe it is the Honeymoon period.

But damn, I don't want it to stop!

I love staring at you while you drive, because it's the only time when I can unabashedly stare at you without feeling shy or insecure or stupid.

I admit I was feeling fucking insecure around you just now after dinner. I get jealous and I might not be perfect but I can't accept criticism. I know I'm
Out of Spec, but repeated reminders get me down.

You hate me in a funk, but that is what gets me down.

You're not perfect either, but I love you all the same. I guess you love me the same way.

But still. *emo*

Maybe it's the hormones talking again. My face has been suffering from outbreaks.

Now I'm fat and ugly.

FML.

Shoulders are stiff as hell. I need my massage but I haven't the time.

Chinese New Year is this weekend but it does not even feel Chinese New Yearish to me.

Doesn't help that Grandpa is dead. And my family hates me.

Pay low, job unknown.

公公，我很想你。 如果你还在就好。

Diary of a dumb blonde.

I love nerds.

Like, a lot.

They are like, so smart.

And they can do Math like real quick. And say really deep stuff like, really deep stuff that is really intelligent.

They even know what is inside my Vitamin Water! Like, I thought Vitamin was only a really cute name to call a drink. But they said its Supposed to have vitamins inside. But actually it is full of empty calories.

Like, #mindblown!

How do they know? Isn't that stuff like, top secret?

I love nerds.

They love watching Anime Cartoons. It's like normal cartoon like SpongBob but with cuter and prettier girls inside.

Like, I could totally dress like them. I would look so hot. Mini skirts and midriff baring shirt. So, freaking hot!

Oh, I just realized it looks like my cheer leading uniform.

But much hotter.

(BLONDE THOUGHTS ARE BORING.)

Please quit smoking soon. The cigarette smoke is killing my complexion and agitating my sinus.

Ughs.

Don't Look Back - She & Him LYRICS

His serenades melts my heart.

It hurts to see him so worn out and tired.

From work, from the strong emotions.

From the financial constraints we all face.

But I figure he'll recover from it. It's still early days of this new beginning.

Tough or not, life still goes on.

I just hope after all our struggles we'll make it through together, stronger.

It's not easy. But it's not impossible either.

I need the courage to make a break through in this career. I'm thrown into the abyss and I need some guidance.

God be my guide.

Our telepathy is amazing.

<3

Every moment with you is a joy.

Thank you for loving me.

The blessings from my friends and their calm acceptance cannot be any better.

The sight of you drinking with me, even though you couldn't drink much was really touching. :-p

Can't wait for Saturday, to spend sometime alone with you.

*happy grin*

Your hands fit so perfectly in mine.

Dear Lord, THANK YOU for answering my prayers so promptly. Amen!

You didn't have to write it down, to tell me how you feel. Because all along, I've already known that these feelings were real.

Seeing you everyday is the most natural thing to do.

Your voice, your songs & serenades brings a smile to my face. The sweetest feeling I could ever have, without doubt nor reservation.

With you, I have no fear. Through thick and thin, poverty and health, I want to be with you.

I'm glad we made it through our heartbreaks, I'm glad we supported each other through it all.

I thank God for you, each and everyday. Because without his grace, it wouldn't have happened so naturally.

Love doesn't have to hurt.

Love happens naturally.

I like the fact that you are the Eldest in the family; gone through the pains I've been through as an Elder.

You're caring and kind. You're very nice. Though you love mindless gossip, you provide me entertainment.

We're on the same frequency, and many times we need no word to know what each other thinks.

The chemistry and vibe is so right. It's amazing.

I want a future together with you, and with God's grace, I know it's possible.

Love,
Q.

Thank you for saving me. For not giving up hope on me. For your unending love.

I love you.

My prayers has been answered.

Has it?