Guess who we saw today at Cold Storage while shopping for dinner?

The fucking Lizard. I'm surprised he isn't dead yet.

But no matter, because I no longer give a shit about him. I'm totally healed and happy now.

Staring at Daryl sleep and cuddling together is the best feeling on Earth. And smelling him. And feeding him. And holding him. And squeezing his pimples. And loving him.

And holding his hands.

And watching him eat.

And talking to him.

And hearing him sing.

And watching him play the guitar.

And sitting beside him.

And his smell...

If you know what I mean now.

I love him. And the rest of the life together with him will be awesome.

Seeing him daily has to be the best thing that happens daily. No day can't be fixed without him.

XD

Just another holiday.

Gone are the days of merry Christmas parties. Now everyone simply book a ticket overseas to do their own thing.

Relatives don't come over anymore and everyone just stops talking.

Whatever has happened?!

I miss those jolly times. It's the only reason why Christmas is worth waiting for. Now it's just another meaningless holiday.

Ring size.

He directly asked for my ring size.

He has been randomly slipping rings on my fingers lately.

He asked if I had any costume rings that I wear on that finger for him to borrow.

He's either fucking with my mind, getting a couple ring or jewelry for someone with similar ring size or getting me an engagement ring.

Can't be the real deal though, because I know he hadn't saved that much yet to afford one.

He's probably fucking with my mind.

We haven't even chosen our flat yet.

1062 out of 860. What are the chances?!

We went to Takashimaya for dinner and shopping today and went home empty handed.

The hot water bottle D wanted to get for me costs way too much. The Tiong Bu (China Girl) was trying to sell us a $69.90 hot water bottle from Germany (made in china).

WTF.

Daryl found one from Japan for $19.90 online!

Daylight robbery, it is.

I wanted to see what was new in H&M but alas none of their clothes come on my size.

Even with money, there's no where I can go in Singapore to purchase wearable clothes in my size.

Other than Marks & Spencer. Which has really dated designs.

Ugh.

He's the sweetest to me. <3

I am dying of menstrual cramps and he ran around the house trying to find a solution for the pain.

I love him so bloody much. Literally.

Got transferred from I Vic international to I Vic logistics because the HR Director resigned.

A week into my new work place and a transfer happens.

To put it nicely, it means my capabilities is seen and thus given the task of a one woman show.

But honestly, it also seems that no one volunteered to take over the logistics department.

Absolutely unhappy.

I don't need someone to Stick their nose into my relationship. I don't appreciate it at all. If my unhappiness makes that person more satisfied with themselves then they can have it.

I'm sick of fighting and protecting it.

Just totally sick of it. Especially so when he doesn't appreciate it anyway.

Started work today.

The senior manager came in late. Then war ensued. There were tons of work to be done and on the first day I was put to task. Work was supposed to end at 6pm. But I worked till 6:45pm before leaving, missing the shuttle bus out.

Had to take a long walk and I think that busted my knee. It hurts now. Ugh.

I was hoping to be allowed slippers but apparently the management grades are subjected to heels.

Oh well.

I felt totally in my element when I used some Excel formula to make work easier.

First day if work wasn't awkward at all.

Except I don't know all their names.

Last days of living with you. :(

Met up with Eileen a couple days ago to do our nails. Will be meeting her to do our Christmas nails next month!

Cost a bomb and gave Daryl nightmares when he heard of the price. But I'm really pleased with the results!

I wanted to blog about something else but alas, it slipped my mind when I broke a wine glass while cleaning the house. Ugh.

I feel like a Stratton Housewife.

I washed the toilet, which was fucking gross cuz he can't seem to aim properly without dribbling; swept the floors in his room, because although he 'packed' his room, he let the dust stay, and the dust makes it impossible to sleep at night because my nose is allergic to dust.

And he has a habit of leaving the dishes in the sink at night, awaiting some fairy godmother to wash the dishes while he sleeps or after he leaves for work.

But it's ok. I'll do it. He's busy at work anyway, and since I can't cook as well as he does, he does most of the cooking at night. So I'll give in. I'll wash.

And because my nails are Gelishly done, THE NAIL ART DOESN'T FALL OFF!

<3 p="p">
But I have a feeling that $275 is way too expensive a package. Ugh. I should have asked for the price before doing it and signing up for the package. Ugh.

Away from the snide remarks, away from negativity. I'm truly me.

I like it how he secretly arranges the icons on my phone because he is pedantic this way.

And some nights when he mumbles and talks in his sleep. And how he randomly cuddles me really tight and just won't let me go.

I love him so much.

It's awesome living together.

And I don't regret one bit. He takes care of me really well, and I get to fuss over him daily. It's great! <3

Can't wait to see him again tonight.

I feel so safe in my hiding place. Away from the Tormentors and that negative environment.

Frolic freely!

Exam went pretty well! For once, I wrote 4 pages for a question. And it was an exam that no one could mug for because it tested all our general knowledge!

The muggers all died in the exam. Woohoo!

New job is going to start on November 1. I want to head to Malaysia after on the 5th. Think I shall request to start on the 6th instead.

XD

Shall heat up left over pasta for lunch!

Baby, if you are reading this; I LOVE YOU!!!!

I can't sleep. I finally got to watch American Beauty with Daryl.

I'm sinking into depression. I can feel the clouds looming over me. I'm afraid that this genetic depression caused by years stuck in a negative environment and subjected to a loony's abuse is having an effect on me as a person.

Or I'm just a person easily affected by bad bitches.

Whichever it is, I'm subconsciously entertaining thoughts of suicide like how it used to be years ago.

This is not a good sign. I need a way out. I'm suffocating. The ex company, HSBC Ins sent me letters through FedEx. I haven't had the chance to look at it. But whenever letters are sent via a dispatcher, it is never good.

I have half a mind never to receive that mail. I don't mind never knowing what's inside either, since the day I knew who the managing director of the group was and how he screamed and threw a fit just because an office boy did something wrong and threatened to sue him, I pretty much think he'll try to sue just about anyone who leaves the company and has nothing good to say at the exit interview.

What a bad reputation he has given himself & his group.

The agents in there are just a bunch of sly money suckers and to be honest, I'm really glad I left the moment I had it all figured out. If I were to stay any longer I think I would've become like them and that doesn't bode well for me mental and spiritual health.

Thank you Lord for showing me the true colors of this industry. I hope stricter regulations come soon.

I just want to stop the sadness. But I can't.

I wish I to be carefree and unrestricted from this humdrum of life.

I wish I to be happier and less worried about being unemployed and I really wish HSBC Insurance would just leave me alone.

Leaving a corporation shouldn't be this hard but this TSD just refuse to leave me alone.

I'm very bothered. Because its just another unhappy episode that I really wish to leave behind yet this group just bugs me non stop. That bitchy manager makes me as angry as Quern Bitch does.

Oh lord, please grant me peace in my heart and let me sleep in peace without unpleasant dreams.

She's crazy.

Dad cooks porridge and steams some dim sum an hour and a half ago. Leaves it on the table for an hour with the QB sitting at the table. No one touches the food. It gets cold. He starts screaming for people to eat the food.

NO ONE EATS THE HAR GAO.

I go for a shower, comes out of the bathroom and I start chomping at the Har Gao & help finish the rest of the food no one seems to take interest in.

Half way through, the Queen Bitch decides to engage me for battle.

She claims I'm eating all the food alone and not sharing.

HELLO, the food was in front of you for an hour and a half, you were not even eating the food.

SUDDENLY WHEN I'M EATING WHAT YOU ALL DON'T LIKE THE FOOD BECOMES THE BEST DELICACY ON EARTH?!

She even snatches the fork out of my hand and stops me from eating.

I stop eating, go into my room. She starts hurling insults about my grandmother, my dead grandpa and the human anatomy.

NO ONE EATS THE FOOD.

Get me out of here.

I baked yesterday, and the disappointment of burning the first batch nearly made me cry.

I was attempting to bake Ice Cream Cupcakes. But I couldn't find the right cone and I think I might have overfilled the cones with batter.

The entire batch only had a few cones made edible. =(

But Daryl was so freaking encouraging and ate the cones. HE said it was nice. =/

So freaking love him. He's so bloody encouraging.

Thank you Lord for Daryl. <3 p="p">

就是怕你会离开。

Bad management

"When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse"

I felt exactly like that when I was in that darned HSBC INS.

Bad management destroyed what could have been an amicable and enjoyable working relationship.

And now it's ruined. The impression and the hopes I once had of this industry has been totally sullied by this bad experience. Never again.

HSBC insurance clawed back $1000 in cold hard cash after hearing of my intention to resign.

The female manager posted very mean things an hour after my resignation, which reaffirmed my decision.

I've made the right choice to leave.

Too many things have happened in this short period of time that has left a very bad taste in my mouth.

But justice will be served and the evil will not last.

God will be the judge.

What good is a big house, when you have no one to live in it?

What good is a big car, when you're the only one in it?

What good is your facade of fame, when you have no one to share it with?

What good is your fortune, when you die with no one to pass it on, and no time to enjoy it?

What good is a great career, when you hurt your health building it?

I've no regrets now if I were to die tomorrow.

I tried to resign after the managers tried to grill me. I had a melt down and burst out in tears in the office.

I'm not happy in the office at all. Even when I meet my clients. I often wonder if I would rather they buy from others after heeding my advice or buy from me since I'll leave sooner or later. Of course, the plans are beneficial to them. But do I want this company to reap the profits?

NO.

Simply because I dislike being there and if I leave, I won't be able to look after their portfolios.

I would love to service them (my clients) but I am not comfortable in my team.

Oh Lord, point me towards the right direction soon. Which career should I go for?

3 months. The stress has never been more.

Health is gone, wealth earned has been returned in the hopes of better returns. But I've come to realize that this isn't what I thought I had signed up for.

What I wanted was independence and freedom of time to generate a passive income for myself.

But what I've been thrown into, is a relentless vicious cycle of stress and targets and the absolute lack of time to do what I want, as and when I want to.

With managers breathing down my neck because of a less than stellar month, I'm off track, off target and absolutely demotivated and unable to handle this amount of pressure.

Corporate pressure is easily handled. But not this money sucking venture.

If I had opted for an office job, I suppose my health would have been in a better shape than now, without the aggravated knee and sleepless nights.

Stress has rendered me infertile from PCOS. And now I'll have to throw in more money to reverse the health damage if I want my own kids on the future.

All from this pursuit of money to get me out of the house.

But I suppose God had a reason to put me through this, because I knew somehow that he had no intention of letting me stay long in this state. He put me into this industry because I wanted to try it out, to make a point.

Now that I have won an award and made a point, there's nothing much else left for me here.

I just need a job for the long term.

Magic typewriter.

I wish I had a magic typewriter.

I'd write myself in full health and with a good happy career that I love which will put food on the table and money in the bank.

I'd write myself a wedding fit for a queen and a good figure for the dress, and a nicely furnished cosy house for us.

I'd write us our dream Jaguar in cream or black. With bulbous headlamps and that statue thing. Cream leather or the normal black.

I wish I could take the stress away and just be happy.

Where does one find such a typewriter?

The male lead, Calvin, reminded me very much of Lizard's hateful character. Self centered, bigoted and selfish as fuck. He does not deserve the typewriter and when Ruby left, I felt sp happy for her. Lol.

I wonder how would D write his perfect dream girl. Because she wouldn't be like me.

He sets my heart a flutter.

Work is stressful. I can't sleep at night from the stress.

Help.

I'm breaking down.

Won the Advanced Award for the month of August.

And only when I'm Advanced Award standard will I earn enough to eat.

$2.5k in commission. For technically a week of actual work.

Pretty worth it, IMHO.

Thank you Lord.

Lord, I ask that if this is meant for me then please make it work out smoothly.

With all these injuries, I'll need the money for my surgery. Amen.

Was getting a massage at Go60 today after work and a long day of meeting.

Masseuse is only 21 and just recently BTO-ed for a flat and managed to get a unit.

Earning just under $2000 a month, her husband and her made the decision to put their entire life on credit for the sake of having a family.

And I wonder why can't we do the same.

Probably because my occupation has no steady income and Daryl is scared as hell to take a leap of faith.

My health is in the gutter, and that makes it harder for me to earn a steady income in this line.

It's shit.

I feel responsible for my clients and I feel guilty should I leave.

But without a steady income, he will never want to commit.

Perhaps I'm really fated to wait till 32 before I'll ever own my own property.

Which probably means a late marriage and no kids, since I don't want to risk the birth of a child with an extra chromosome.

Which defeats the purpose of marriage anyway.

I think I should just vanquish any thoughts of matrimony.

Singularity gives me less problems and stress to deal with.

I'm freaking out.

I'm freaking out because I can't trust myself to be gainfully employed in a mundane 9am - 5pm desk job.

I'm stressing out because this work as a Financial Planner is giving me a lot of pressure. And I'm giving myself more stress than I can handle.

I'm freaking out because my health is crumbling under pressure and the money I earn has been used up for my medical bills.

I'm freaking out because at this rate, I won't be able to save enough for marriage or housing.

I'm freaking out because Singapore is becoming more unlivable by the day.

A pigeon hole for a million dollars is just ridiculous.

I'm better off single at this rate.

To just patiently wait till the age of 35 before I buy my own house.

No care, no worries.

Meet the Tormentors.

Field day.

Thank you Lord for this day!

The Queen Bitch swallowed her words quite literally when she appeared for dinner at Soup Restaurant, which was supposed to be an introductory dinner just for the Father Figure.

Daryl bought Peony Jade's traditional yam paste filo pastry moon-cakes for the family, because I asked him to. Lol.

This tactic worked really well and shut her up after the sumptuous dinner.

He didn't do much planning for the dinner, so we pretty much pulled a last minute stunt and decided to eat at Soup Restaurant which we had Just dined in the day before.

But the food was good and the service was fantastic regardless of branch and location. (Ate at Changi Airport's branch the day before.)

Tormentors came an hour late as usual, while we starved in the restaurant waiting for them.

The FF almost wanted to order extras but I stopped him in time, for the food portions were more than enough to feed 5 person easily.

We were stuffed at the end of dinner and she couldn't stop praising the food.

Conversation went well, and they seemed satisfied with him.

We win.

She even thanked D for the good food and moon cakes.

And they ate the moon cake right after getting home despite the filling dinner.

I just hope it will be easier when itsz my turn to impress his father.

Thank you lord!

I want to know more about you.

Forever fan girl

I will forever be your fan girl.

Just can't stop swooning when you sing or play the bass.

Can't help giggling when you wink. Can't help sighing when you sing. Can't help blushing when you smile at me.

It's silly. But I'm happy and at ease around you and I can't stop myself from being silly.

I love you.

What could have happened had I not confessed, made my liking for you so bloody obvious and invited you on an impromptu holiday?

Would we still be together?

Would you love me?

Spending our days lazing around and enjoying the company of each other.

I don't need anything more to be entertained.

If it is meant to be, it will be.

Dear God, am I made out for this? Why do I feel that I'm just not good enough? :-/

I just need a good income to get married and live happily with him together. That's all I ask for. Amen

I feel so much better today. The negative effects of the pills might have worn off it seems.

Hormonal

I will give myself till the end of the year.

To give it my best shot.

If it goes well, I'll stay.

If things do not get better, and I can't stabilize by then; I suppose it would be wise to leave and cut my losses.

As much as I wish for things to work out, these stress is not improving my health.

PCOS has totally ravaged and fucked up my mind and body from the hormonal imbalance from my body and the pills I've been ordered to take to retune my hormones.

Daryl can see the difference, and the drastic mood changes are hard to handle.

I admit I'm taken aback by my own mood swings too.

I may be naturally pessimistic by environment and upbringing, but this new pessimism and stress has developed into a black cancerous tumour.

Oh Lord, what am I supposed to do?

 I need an outlet for this negativity, a way to drive it away for good.

I feel very weary of my colleagues.

And I'm resentful of the way the upper management push for sales. Like slave drivers, my freedom is restricted, with limited rewards.

The ways of business is out dated, and highly inefficient.

There has to be a better way to do things. But the red tape and restrictions when it comes to advertising is stifling.

Oh Lord, please show me the way my career should go.

Amen.

It feels like a dream, to have found my gentleman.

A man whom I thought only exist in fairy tales and novels of fiction.

Thank you Lord. I think my dreams are really coming through.

I long for the day when we can finally live together and form our own home.

I've been really busy and my leg isn't healed. I wanted to see the doctor again but I couldn't because by the time I reached the clinic, they had no slots left to see me.

My knees are hurting like a bitch and I really need a good cure to this pain once and for all. :(

Dear Lord, please let me rest and recuperate fully. Please fulfill my positive wishes. Amen

<3

Break a leg

Fell down the stairs at the call centre the other day.

I guess it's God's way of telling me to rest and destress.

I'm extremely blessed to have him. To know that he'll stay by my side through thick and thin.

💜💜💜💜

I just need you in my life.

One day I'll just leave.

I think I'm going to bleed to death.

For four months my period went MIA. And suddenly out of the damn blue on Wednesday, it decided to release the red tide.

I've been bleeding through for 3 days now and the pain has rendered me useless at work.

ARGH!

Another day.

Another 100k case came in today.

I caught her at the roadshow yesterday.

Made an appointment with her today, and proposed a plan with the help of a Senior.

Another 3 month wait. Ugh.

The larger the sum, the longer the wait. But I admit, I'm not very patient this month after getting many clients with large sums and no small cases to close quickly.

I just pray the pending cases close soon. Too many documents accumulating in my bag.

Dear Lord, I need more ready to close cases so that I may hit my target soonest! But at least I'm finally enrolled to start on Medishield soon. It's the cheapest and most helpful plan around for those I care about now. Amen

AM I REALLY CUT OUT FOR THIS?

Mixed feelings.

Something is holding me back. An insecurity, an uncertainty.

Fear.

I need to be unafraid.

Perhaps my insecurity is getting the better of me.

Please Lord, let meet my target for the month and have a fulfilling career in this line. Amen.

I'm a blessed girl. To have Daryl by my side. Through the good times and bad.

I pray that he is the one for me.

We went to Andy Warhol's exhibition again, cuz we didn't get to See it all the other time, having spent the majority looking at Titanic.

I'm really glad that we went through the entire day without him smoking much. Though my body was hurting like a bitch.

I can't sleep on my left side anymore and sometimes the pain just keeps me up.

D, I love you so dearly and I'm so ever thankful that you love me too.

We have so much to plan for; another stage of life. Perhaps I've delayed for too long to get into this industry. But I suppose it's better late than never. After all I'm still 24. Not 27, or 30 like some. I think I have a slight advantage. God willing, I wish I'll be able to help many and help myself at the same time.

Just so we could have a better life.

I really wish to reach out to my friends who need it most first, to let them see the importance of financial planning, so that come what may, they will still have emergency funds to tide them through. Because with life, nothing is predictable, and planning for the worst is absolutely vital.

I've planned for most emergencies, but the most unexpected can still happen at times. I just hope I've pre empted enough to cushion most disasters.

Lord, guide me as I leave my chosen career path in your hands, and help me reach out and help the ones who need it most. Because for once, I actually feel positive doing something, with no second doubt. Amen.

Botanic Garden!

We walked the entire Bishan Ang Mo Kio park on Saturday until our legs were jellied, and on Sunday we walked the Botanic Gardens!

Bought a loaf of bread to feed the fishes and it was so fun and relaxing to sit at the edge of the pond while feeding Terrapins, Catfishes and Kois!

Dearie bought me a pitcher plant, N. "Burgundy Belle" - ampullaria x rafflesiana!


I super love it!

AND!

We've been together for half a year. Amazingly, it felt like yesterday that we were in Genting.

We're happy together despite the drama, and we've managed to overcome it all.

<3

Thank you Lord for fulfilling my dreams. Now I really do know that all things happen for a reason and you will always lead me to the right path at your time.

(I'm off to stare at my pitcher plant!)

I'm finally a financial planner. Finally, I can advise my friends and help them plan their finances.

Finally, I can help myself while helping others grow their wealth.

Finally.

Thank you Lord.

I dream of a black jaguar. Vintage. With that jaguar statue.

A super successful career in banking and insurance. I want to help others help themselves with getting richer and wealthier through my advice, so that we may all lead better lives.

I dream of marriage, happiness, and our own home. I want a wedding fit for a queen. I want to be able to afford my dream wedding before 30.

I want 2 kids if I can. Or more if the first two don't turn out bratty.

I want to live in my own house and get it decorated ala French Noir. XD Vintage. Again.

I want to age gracefully and be healthy.

I want to be loved for who I am.

Happiness.

Will you stop loving me one day?

This niggling fear...

New hobby!

My new favourite activity has to be masking D's face and see the mud mask suck all the gross oil out of his face.

So fun!❤❤❤

I hope you are over her. Because if you aren't then it's best I leave you to heal before I get hurt.

Insomnia.

Sleepless brain in overdrive.

Way too stressed.

Upset. Why can't life get easier for me?

I'm so tired of going through this phase over and over again.

A moment of wealth, then a seemingly endless lifetime of poverty and strife.

God, why?!

What is my calling? What am I supposed to do with my life? :-(

I'll never move out at this rate. Nor get to live the life I want.

If its going no where then please kill me and stop this suffering.

I seek solace in your embrace
Your warmth and musk

*swoon*

Worry

Every night I sit alone at home and cry.

Wishing and praying for her recovery.

Where is the active grandma I once knew?

Please, Grand. Get well soon.

I don't know if I'm eligible to donate blood.

But she needs the blood.

Oh Lord please keep her safe. Please take the stroke away from her. I beg you.

Wrenched.

I miss you.

Please let grandma live to carry her great grandchild.

:-(

6 months gone by. Soon it will be 7.

And everyday I long to see you. I hope you do feel the same way too.

Such love. I don't want it to ever end.

<3

DHL - No commitment to deliver.

I was supposed to receive my Parcel from China TODAY. I took an off day just to wait for my parcel, ONLY TO FIND A FAILED ATTEMPT DELIVERY SLIP SLID UNDER MY DOOR, WITH TIME STATED 1810PM WHEN IT WAS 11AM WHEN I SAW THE SLIP UNDER MY DOOR!

I was expecting the parcel as I had emailed my supplier and she had given me the tracking number last night and I had tracked the location to be in Singapore, to be delivered.

When I tracked again, THE WEBSITE STATED FAILED DELIVERY AT 11:22AM, WHEN NO DOORBELL OR KNOCK WAS HEARD. JUST A FAILED DELIVERY SLIP UNDER MY DOOR!

AFTER CALLING THE SERVICE HOTLINE TO REQUEST FOR A REDELIVERY, I ASKED THE SERVICE PERSONNEL IF IT WAS POSSIBLE TO DO A RE-ROUTE TO SEND ME MY PARCEL AS IT WAS URGENT.  I FOUND OUT AFTER MUCH PROBING THAT THE PARCEL NEVER LEFT THE WAREHOUSE.

AND THE CUSTOMER SERVICE PERSONNEL ADMITTED IT! (Bravo for your honesty, but it seems like you are better off working in a more deserving company than DHL!)

WHAT KIND OF SERVICE COMMITMENT IS THIS?! TO SET OUT FOR DELIVERY WITH THE INTENT OF NOT DELIVERING THE GOODS?!

WHEN I REQUESTED THAT A DELIVERY BE MADE TODAY, I WAS TOLD THAT THE NEXT DELIVERY TIME SLOT WOULD BE 7PM.

THEN WHAT IS THE POINT OF ME TAKING A DAY OFF FROM WORK TO WAIT FOR THE PARCEL!?

I MIGHT AS WELL GO TO WORK IN THE DAY!

I ASKED THE SERVICE PERSONNEL IF IT WAS POSSIBLE TO GET THE DELIVERY DONE BEFORE 6PM AS I HAD OTHER APPOINTMENTS AND COMMITMENTS TO MAKE. YET SHE COULD NOT GIVE ME A SET TIMING, INSISTING ON BEFORE 6PM.

IT WAS THEN  FURTHER REVEALED THAT HER SYSTEM STATED FAILED DELIVERY AT 1:22PM. ARE THE INFORMATION STATED ON YOUR TRACKING WEBSITE UNRELIABLE?

BECAUSE AFTER THE PHONE CALL AND HAVING TO SETTLE FOR A REDELIVERY WITH NO COMMITTED TIMING OF 'BEFORE 6PM', I CHECKED THE TRACKING SITE TO SEE THE FAILED DELIVERY ATTEMPT TIMING HAD CHANGED TO 11:56AM.

I'VE TAKEN SCREEN SHOTS OF THE WEBSITE THIS TIME ROUND, IN CASE DHL DECIDES TO SWITCH THE TIMING AGAIN TO MAKE YOURSELF LESS LIABLE FOR RESPONSIBILITY AND FAULT.

YOUR LACK OF SERVICE COMMITMENT IS ASTOUNDING.

I WOULD LIKE A REVERT ON THE CORRECTIVE ACTION TO THIS. ELSE YOU'VE LOST YET ANOTHER CUSTOMER.

P.S.: After screaming, being a total utter bitch & pointing out their disgusting lack of service integrity, my parcel was delivered at 4:15pm. 15 minutes after I've sent out my written formal complaint.

Sigh. The lengths I have to go through to get satisfactory service.

DHL Express has much to improve on.

Gifts from
Oister who went for a month long trip to Europe.

Love the Épée!

All I really want is a home with love and comfort, without competition, hate or jealousy.

But as the days go by, it seems more of an impossibility.

Because of the Queen Bitch, I increasingly hate family gatherings.

The amount of rumours and false information spread amongst my relatives about me by that bitch and their eager reception of such bullshit makes it near impossible for me to give them much respect, much less bother to turn up to see their faces.

A few would bother with advice to not be so harsh on me. But of course, more shit diahorreas out of that bitches mouth because she has to put me down.

I'm sick of this shit.

OH LORD, please! GET ME OUT OF THIS SHIT HOLE!!!

I love fussing over your face and staring at you while you sleep.

I'm content just having you by my side and studying together.

I wish your friends won't brainwash you. Or change your love and perception towards me.

But if one day you do, then I suppose this relationship won't be worth it. But I trust you won't.

Right?

I forgive you because I love you. But that does not mean you are allowed to hurt me again.

Remember that.

DIABLO 3.

One LIE is all you need, to RUIN a perfect Relationship.

Repeated lies and INTENT to Deceive is an act of Dishonesty to taint a white sheet.

Like blood stains on silk, it's impossible to remove. As much as you try, what's done can't be reboot.

Unlike that stupid game you play. As cursed as it's namesake, a game of Dismay.

When all you needed was to be frank. And answer my question at point blank.

YET.

You chose to lie and hide.

Now you can't mend that voided trust. That big black gap of divide.

No, I can no longer trust you.

Your words no longer hold truths.

Your Credibility is no longer strong.

All you need is one LIE, to RUIN this Relationship.

It is. No longer, Perfect.

Princess Chelsea - The Cigarette Duet

It's just a cigarette & it cannot be that bad 
Honey don't you love me and you know it makes me sad? 
It's just a cigarette like you always used to do 
I was different then, I don't need them to be cool 

It's just a cigarette and it harms your pretty lungs 
Well it's only twice a week so there's not much of a chance 
It's just a cigarette it'll soon be only ten 
Honey can't you trust me when I want to stop I can 

It's just a cigarette and it's just a Malboro Light 
Maybe but is it worth it if we fight? 
It's just a cigarette that I got from Jamie-Lee 
She's gonna get a smack and I'm gonna give you three 

It's just a cigarette and I only did it once 
it's only twice a week so there's not much of a chance 
It's just a cigarette and I'm sorry that I did it 
Honey can't you trust me when I want to stop I can

Love is, falling asleep with you by my side and drooling all over your shoulder.

:p

After M9a and NAC, I'll be able to get my advancements while doing my HI.

Money come quick!

Anyway, last night I prayed like I've never prayed before. And it works to set me at ease.

At least I get some sleep.

Ways to manage money. I couldn't sleep, because I was fraught with thoughts of finances.

But I remembered a particular money savings plan that I had learnt at the Millionaire Minds intensive course that I had attended.

But I couldn't remember what the exact portions for savings were.

So I Googled and found the following article.

Excerpt taken from http://EzineArticles.com/1458380.

Until you can handle what you've got, you won't get any more!

The habit of managing your money is more important than the amount.
Either you control money, or it will control you.

So, how exactly do you manage your money? Here's a great plan from the book. Remember, it's important to start, not the amount. Start with $1 if you must; just start! Get the habit going!

Prepare 6 jars ("Jars" can be literal, or bank accounts, or categories on a spreadsheet).

Place the following amounts in each of the jars every month after taxes.

1. Financial Freedom Account (10%)- used only for investments and buying or creating passive income streams. Money is never spent, only invested. Also, have a Financial Freedom Jar where you deposit money each day ($1, $10, loose change). Do something daily.
2. Play Account (10%)- Use this money to nurture yourself. Use it for extra-special things in your life. The only guideline is that you must spend the money every month. Use it each month in a way that makes you feel rich!
3. Education Account (10%) - Set aside money for your education (school, seminars,etc.) or your child's education.
4. Long-term Savings for Spending Account (10%)
5. Giving (10%)
6. Necessities Account (50%)

Can't sleep.

Slumber evades me again. Too many thoughts in my head.

The fear and pressure is relentless. One day he'll leave me. Because I'm so burdened, he'll tire of trying to carry it for me.

It is but an eventuality.

You stole my tree trunk.

Thee to the Garden of Botanic.

Was supposed to meet Daryl in the morning at 8am for McBreakfast before class at 9am. But we were both tired and only got to meet at 9am for McBreakfast before sauntering into class at 11am.

At least we caught the important bits for exam before it ended prematurely at 1:45pm, way before the stipulated 5pm.


We went to the Botanic Garden thereafter to feed fishes and terrapins. But mostly Terrapins. I had a lot of fun at the pond, feeding them with an entire loaf of bread we had bought from the Petrol Station while topping up the thirsty car.

I haven't had such fun in a long time.

I really liked sitting by the pond, barefooted and feeding fishes. It was really therapeutic and relaxing.

Think we'll go back there again.

Dinner was at The Vines, and I didn't realise that they only served Mother's Day menu this weekend. I haven't celebrated Mother's Day in ages, so I couldn't be too damned to remember that it was today.

Anyway, the set menu was still good. Added Escargot to it. Even better.

Then we spent the rest of the evening in the car, watching Izzard Comedy on his iPad.

It's easy spending time with him. Watching a show and just laughing away at British humour that so many others don't get.

Finally there is someone with the same humour as I.

Finally someone to share my life with, without any need to change or adapt.

On Friday, he brought me to Lavender's Mixed Organ Stall for Pig Trotter Vinegar. <3

I polished the whole  bowl away. It was absolutely orgasmic. Magic in my mouth. I drank it all up. Every single drop of vinegar.

IT was pure bliss.

Better than Foie Gras.

Even though I had Foie Gras for two consecutive meals (at Itacho Sushi and Shin Kushinya respectively) on Thursday after passing my M9 in a magical timing of 45 minutes or less. It was a 2 hour paper.

Amazing.

Anyway, Ishiki is a new cheaper branch of Shin Kushinya. I had dinner there before ordering the Foie Gras for takeaway at Shin Kushinya. Price is cheaper than Sakae Sushi (for their makis) and Sushi Tei but their quality is way better!

I'll bring Daryl there to try some day.

Speaking of which, he mentioned the opening of a joint account on Friday over awesome dinner. I think once my career starts and my income stabilizes, opening a joint "AND" account would work.

It's about time then to start saving for our future together.

He'd better not try to defraud me of my money though. That would be very stupid of him. (Then again, I have no money anyway.)

LOL.

Bah, we'll see when the time comes.

I fear.

I fear losing you because I hold you too dear.

I fear.

I fear the hurt of realization and discovery of betrayal and unfaithfulness that plagued me so near a time ago.

I fear.

I fear the loss of you that I've put my heart and soul into.

The only reason that I'm alive today was only and truly is because of you.

I fear.

I fear the loneliness and despair left to my own device when you finally leave me.

But all these; I wouldn't have feared if you left me alone and never called me "dear" and never held me near your addictive scent and showered me with my perception of love, or kissed me with the tenderest kiss and loved me with the sweetest love I've ever known.

I tear.

Because of all the love and kisses and fulfillment of my true love and desires by you alone.

Losing you would be the most devastating of all devastations.

The destruction of my being, my will to live. Because of you.

And only you, my love, hold the power and magic to destroy me.

Your power of love and affection.

Please don't cheat on me.

I see these men with their wedding bands. Flirting and being merry with women, not their wives.

Mistresses half their age, dancing and entertaining them.

Drinking, kissing, being raunchy.

No one displays guilt, no one thinks it's wrong.

No one knows the other, so no wrong deed is done.

"what happens in here, stays in here."

But have you forgotten that strangers have eyes too?

That some might know you, and see through you?

So in everything you do, think it thoroughly through.

Make sure you know what you are doing before staying the night too.

Remember. Eyes are watching.

"And I love you too."

Summon like you.

Daryl has been getting summoned while out with me for a few times now, because he regularly risks it and parks on Double Yellow Lines and what nots.

Lyrics inspired by the events.

Sung to the tune of Someone Like You by Adele.

=D

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a lot and you're leaving now.
I heard you whistling through.
Guess you thought you'll be back in time.

Old friend, why you so suay?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the fine.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't hide it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Nehmind, I'll fine someone like you
I want nothing but the rest of you too
Don't forget it, I said
I remember you said,
"Today will be the last time but sometimes I forget,
Sometimes its only 5 minutes but sometimes 10 instead, "
Yeah

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time you kenna fine
We were born and raised
To pay and pay
Bound by the surprise of our PAP days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Nehmind, I'll fine someone like you
I want nothing but the rest of you too
Don't forget it, I said
I remember you said,
"Today will be the last time but sometimes I forget,
Sometimes its only 5 minutes but sometimes 10 instead, "
Yeah

Nothing compares
To double line and overnight fares
Regrets and mistakes
They are quotas for my sake.
Who would have known it's so easy to give you ticket?

Nehmind, I'll fine someone like you
I want nothing but the rest of you too
Don't forget it, I said
I remember you said,
"Today will be the last time but sometimes I forget,
Sometimes its only 5 minutes but sometimes 10 instead, "
Yeah 

Nehmind, I'll fine someone like you
I want nothing but the rest of you too
Don't forget it, I said
I remember you said,
"Today will be the last time but sometimes I forget,
Sometimes its only 5 minutes but sometimes 10 instead, "
Yeah

HSBC's D&D

Was alright. It wasn't very fun, even with glasses after glasses of alcohol BEFORE and DURING the entire event.

Loads of brainwashing, tons of pretentious bull.

Though I've set my mind to it, and I'm sure once I'm truly a part of the company, I would enjoy this process, I wasn't quite sure what I was doing in there, pretending to be part of the productive team, when I'm honestly still a struggling FP-wannabe.

I'd rather they wait till I pass my bloody M9 before asking me along. At least I'll feel more worthy.

And at least I wouldn't feel spending $150 a night for such events a waste of time and money.

I'm better off at home mugging my ass off instead of being trapped in the event till 12am.

Oh well, perhaps they were trying to be inclusive.

I hope I'll be one of those award winners in time to come.

But now I can only try my best.

Lord, hear my prayers. <3

Stoned.

Medication is too fucking strong. I've been stoned since this morning.

WTF.

Needs rest...

Anyway I iced the Q.B's DBS thingy for a fee. Surprisingly she was willing to pay for it. LOL.

If anyone's interested I'll do the same for their things for a fee too.

=p

It's HSBC's Dinner & Dance tomorrow.

I've just painted me nails, and I'll be doing my hair and make up at 2pm tomorrow.

>_<

I've joined a prestigious group of sorts, and I've put my mind to excel in this industry.

I must not fail myself.

:)

I've been grumpy of late, because the Queen Bitch is up with her antics again. Her behaviour mirrors that of a 16 year old Cheer-leading airhead.

It's tiring and annoying to deal with an idiot like her, and its worse when she screams and shouts the house down on a daily basis since she lost her job.

UGH.

Yes, again. Failed to keep a job down.

WTF.

❤❤❤

He completes me!

Toa Payoh Popiah!!!!

HE BROUGHT ME TO EAT POPIAH TODAY!

At this Toa Payoh Popiah Tuah called "POPIAH".

-.-!

I know right?

But it was really good and I really wanted to order another plate after we had finished the first but he said we should try the other food too.

So we ordered two plates of yuan yang Ipoh Horfun from the stall right beside POPIAH.

I super love the noodles!

And it's true that you can gauge how good the food is if the soup is flavoursome!

I'm so damn blessed.

Even though this morning the bloody SMRT TAXI UNCLE tried to cheat me of my money by charging me double ERP. I had to argue with the bloody driver. Ughs. Long story. It is all on Facebook.

And I failed my M9.

I'm very worried. If I don't pass all by May, my exams would clash with my HI AND M9a.

And that would be catastrophic.

Plus I won't be able to book our Batam trip for Daryl's birthday!

And I don't want to disappoint him!
:((

I have to get it all done by August, before my M5 expires for good.

Lord, please I beg you to make this transition a smooth one for me so that we may achieve the goals we have in life. Amen.

I can't sleep cuz I'm paranoid about Daryl dumping me because I eat too much and I explore too many food options and one day he might become too broke because I spent all his money on food.

:(

But if he stops me from trying all the food around me then I wouldn't want him anymore because what joy is there in life when you can't eat yummy food?

:(

Anyway today we went to Dempsey Hill and had a very sumptuous tea at Jones The Grocer.

I went crazy.

Ordered a Brownie, an Apple Crumble, Nougat, Black Forest Hot Chocolate and Traditional Hot Chocolate.

Gave him my marshmallow cuz I was conscious about my sugar intake. And since he has a sweeter tooth than me, plus he was ingesting that apple crumble which has considerably less sugar than the brownie and Almond Nougat, the marshmallow I had to miss.

We had Santouka Ramen for dinner but I really really craved Popiah. But I don't know of any place nice for Popiah but to make it myself at home (which is shitload of work) or to eat it at Spring Court. Ugh.

I think I can eat Popiah daily and lose weight that way because Popiah is just so damn nice.

:(

What if one day after child birth I balloon and become damn fat. Will he dump me for a tanned bombshell instead?

:-/

I need an occasion to have the house to myself then I can cook gnocchi for him.

He's afraid that I'll go back to Lizard. But that will never happen.

Dearest, you have nothing to worry about. <3

Brought Daryl to see Baby Orange today. Had bought a few shirts for Baby Orange previously but did not have the time to visit and gift.

Finally made it today, after a having Dunch, (that's dinner and late lunch) at Hatched!

The food there is super delicious! I love it!!! Dearie brought me there and I was caught by surprise! XD Then we had a slow walk in the Botanic Gardens!

I FINALLY SAW REAL LIFE SWANS!!!

Oh joy! XD

I'm going to return there and feed them one day!

XD

List of firsts with Daryl.

1. Getting stuck in the mall in the middle of the night while trying to get access into the car park. Running around the dark mall trying to get to the car while high and drunk on Whiskey and beer.

2. Completing each other's sentences when talking.

3. Saying the same thing at the same time. Totally telepathic and jinx-mazing.

4. Have a birthday song sung and recorded just for me.

5. Fully plan and book a holiday.

6. Receive a none collateral branded bag. (fucking love my Furla!)

7. Get high drunk and go KBFZ on him for hours at the side of the road.

8. Study together. Go to class together. Take exams together. Do projects together. ❤❤

9. Graduate before Daryl!!

10. Pull nipple hair. Kekez.

11. Save me from leaping off MBS.

12. Receive allowance from him for my expenditures and he doesn't even complain about it. I FEEL SO DAMN LOVED!

13. Feel absolutely totally irrevocably loved by a man. As much love as the love I had from my late Grandpa whom
I so dearly loved. (D is like the living breathing loving man that I've been searching for my entire life!)

16. I can imagine having his kids. :,)

17. He likes me sweaty.

18. He sucks at planning. The one and only guy who can't plan a surprise for nuts. I've been given pleasant birthday surprises before. His kind is a first.

19. First boyfriend to drive into Sentosa.

20. First boyfriend who got together with me on the First day of the year, overseas.

21. First boyfriend who gave me battery pack to save my ever dying phone. Everyone else just let my phone die.

22. First boyfriend to ever meet Cassandra and play with Baby Orange!

23. Only man who has waited for 3 hours in the car for me. His patience for me is incredible. ❤❤❤

24. First boyfriend who has never been to Bedok 85 for awesome hawker food!

25. First boyfriend to talk about marriage without trepidation other than the QB's never ending antics.

26. Eloping has never been that romantic an idea than with him.

27. Went through MRT without letting go of his hands. And it feels so natural with him, I didn't realise it until we had tapped out!

28. He saved me from broken heels TWICE. (@^-^@)

29. Buy me a Butterfly lamp.

30. Bring him for a walk around Chinatown. I broke his Chinatown virginity. I need to bring him to Spring Court for POPIAH soon!

31. Only guy able to remove my pearl earring that was stuck on my left ear for years without hurting me! HE'S MY HERO!!!

32. Power napped in the car parked in Changi Airport.

33. Studied into the night with him at TCC.

34. Broke his Carl's Junior virginity.

35. Went to the Botanic Garden to feed fishes and terrapins.

36. Take his T shirt to bed. His smell helps me sleep.

37. Apply mask on his face and squeeeeeeeeze his pimples till he cries.

38. Hunt down our favourite Thai Coconut Juice in Cold Storage and pledge to fill our fridge with it.

39. Attend a wedding dinner together.

40. Go tanning together at Changi Court.

41. Walk the entire Vivocity to shop!

42. Fed him cheese fondue. He has never tried it before.

43. Eat at Trapizza in Sentosa.

44. Visit his colleagues' house for Hari Raya & actually felt fine interacting and talking with his colleagues.

45. Walk around Sentosa and get leg cramps together.

46. Brought him to City Space. He likes the Long Island there.

47. Eat Prata and drink Teh Tarik at Mr Teh Tarik. It's his first time seeing the Indian man Tarik the teh.

48. Buy Peony Jade moon cakes for my family.

49. Get a supplementary card from him.

50. Buy $78 Mao Shan Wang and Gui Huang Durian moon cakes for his dad.

51. Eight months of undisrupted pure love.

52. Bought a pair of paper pellet air guns. Ripped it open and played with them like kids. He bought a Rifle while I got a machine gun! Shot them in the carpark at random cars!

53. Drove his car for the first time around the carparks and then all the way home!!

54. Said Hi to his dad and for once he heard me!

55. He washed my hair for me!!!

56. Watched Coldplay LIVE 2012 movie concert for the first time together! It was fucking awesome!! All thanks to Timothy Alvin Oh for giving us the tickets!

57. Apply for BTO. <3

58. Cycle in the family cart together.

59. Get a joint savings account.

60. Our first Chinese New Year together.

61. Received my first ever Valentine's Day Card. <3

62. Went to his first Gig at the Silver Club.

63. Attended my first ever concert!

64. Visited his aunties at Lentor and had lunch together.

65. Attended his friend's wedding dinner.

66. Went to USS. Played all the kiddy rides.

67.Cooked brunch for him. Pancakes witg scrambled eggs.

68. Cooked sweet potato porridge. 

Omg! Flippy & Hoofy are so cute! Gg to get a limited edition #DettolSG No-Touch Hand Wash with them on it nw!

Omg! Flippy & Hoofy are so cute! Gg to get a limited edition #DettolSG No-Touch Hand Wash with them on it nw!

I... Got... The... Bag!!!!

OMG!

DARYL BOUGHT ME THE FURLA BAG!!!

I felt so bad about him spending $540 on me that I almost told him I don't want the bag cuz it was too expensive but now that I have it in my hands I'm so bloody ecstatic!

MY PLASTIC AND GLITTER OBSESSION IS COMPLETE!!!!!!!!

(Until the next plastic item appears, that is.)

*dies*

Dee! I LOVE YOU!!!!!

(Now get me the Birkin and I'll marry you.)

XP

\{^_^}/ ~<3 ~<3

OMG. How I love Dee!

P.S.: I apologized and felt bad about getting the bag. LOLOL. YES, that's why I said "I'm Sorry." just now, cuz I actually feel bad!!!!!!

No matter how bad you are at planning, no matter how angry I get.

I can never stay angry at you for long, nor stop loving you.

But for Pete's sake, LEARN TO PLAN ALREADY!

By the way, your drawing made me laugh and smile. I'm considerably cheered because of it.

♥

Holding your hands and having you by my side - Comfort.

To have you on the phone, without the need for speech, but just feeling your presence - Natural Ease.

Saying the same things at the same time and completing each other's sentences - Chemistry.

To have you with me through this period of unemployment while I go through training, without hesitation and unwavering encouragement and motivation - Support

Allowing me to blabber all my ridiculous thoughts and irrational fears and allaying all of my doubts and phobias - Tolerance

Waiting 2 hours for me in the car while I snooze in bed, unaware that you are already below my block waiting, oblivious to your missed calls on my phone - Patience

I can't Thank God enough for you in my life.

I love you, D.

Dinner at 飞飞云吞面。

Had dinner at 飞飞云吞面 after class on Saturday with dearest.

We ordered Chicken Feet, Prawn Cakes and their famous Wanton Noodles.

The chicken feet was really soft and well braised. The flesh/skin came off easily from the bones and I know the chicken feet had been braised for a long while cuz even the bones were soft!

The Prawn Cake HAS to go with their sweet Thai chili sauce! It's sweet and tangy; complements deep fried prawn cake, so that it does not feel too oily in the mouth.

Everyone knows their noodles are very special with a certain indescribable texture to it.

XD

I should have ordered the dumpling noodles though, because their dumplings are filled with whole prawns!

Sweet, juicy, fresh prawns!!!

We ordered it the previous time, but it was too much for the two of us to finish!

I know D loves Fei Fei, cuz he suggested it today! (I was too dazzled)

Anyway, if anyone reading wants to know where it is, it's located at 72 Joo Chiat Place.

You'll pass by an entire stretch of small roads named after Fruits. One of them is Chiku Road. XP

I'll be 24 years old in a few days. I'm still broke because of emotional spending, still unmarried, but just a little closer to being a Tai Tai.

It's not hard to enjoy the finer things in life. But it takes a lot of hard work to earn the money to afford it.

Because of a bad romance, I've lost the ability to afford my dream life.

I don't need to travel far, nor do I need extremely expensive goods.

All I want, is the ability to afford good food. To enjoy every meal I have, and to taste all cuisines and variety there is to savor.

That, I find, has to be the best thing in life.

And I'll work extra hard for it.

I need to rebuild my savings, and build a new life. I'll have to rid the past and face the challenges along the way.

I've procrastinated for long enough. Hopefully by 28, I'll be married and earning the rights to my lifestyle.

Two wonderful days with D in Batam's Turi Beach.

Rejuvenating and perfect. Even the rain couldn't dampen our moods.

Bought him many things before the trip, because he was never a beach person.

Boardshorts & new slippers.

I've been ordering loads of t shirts online for him. It has yet to arrive but I suppose it'll come soon.

Now if money could just drop from the sky so that I can buy new office wear for myself.

:-/

And then there's that Furla bag I'm still dreaming about.

I suppose I'll get it in June.

I'm supposed to plan another trip for his Birthday to Batam again but the other hotels are just not as good as Turi, to be honest.

Unless I give Harmoni One another try. But the previous time we went, their staff service was slow as hell.

Maybe we should try Nongsa Point Marina for a change...

Anyway, dear came to fetch me home after my telemarketing session at Clark Quay, and we had supper at Brinda's!

He liked the Mutton Briyani! ^^

Cracked some jokes in the car and I just couldn't stop laughing. I laughed so hard my stomach hurt. XD

(If you keep making me laugh that much, I'll have six pacs very soon.)

Lord, please gimme windfall. I hate being so damn broke!

He drew that! 💜💜💜💜

He came down all the way from home to Pasir Ris just to send me home cuz my feet was blistered.

I felt so loved!!

Made 300 cold calls today. Managed to arrange one appointment. XD

9 more to go. Gambatte!!

Another 13 hour day tomorrow.

I can do it!!

I booked the Couple Spa Package at Eska. Its a three hour session of pampering. And I customized some of it for him. (Spent the entire afternoon liaising with Eska for it.)

He said he's afraid that we won't have enough time together in Batam. But I want him to experience the most of it.

And its a waste to be there and not go for Eska!!

I'll request for late check out at the resort, as late as possible.

I want to eat A&W at Nagoya Hill anyway, and Eska is just right across the road.

And after going to Batam so many times, I'm sure we'll have enough time alone at the resort.

;)

Just perhaps I won't get as much tanning time.

Maybe I should push back the spa timing to 4pm Batam time...

I picked out a pair of spectacles for him on Sunday and made him cry while seeing Incredibly Loud and Extremely Close.

Orientation Day was made better with Fefe in the same cohort as me.

We talked a lot ^.^

I feel really well taken care of when I'm with Daryl and Fefe could see that he is the One I've been looking for.

Thank you for your reassurance, because it validates my choice and decision.

D, thank you for taking care of me, because I feel loved with your acts of service and tender hugs and kisses. ;)

I love you. And I thank God for his plans.

Furla bag. Why you so expensive? :(

You're just plastic and glittery. Hell, you're not even Leather. You fucking came out of a damn mold in a factory and required no craftsmanship from an old leather craftsman in Italy or Paris. For all I know, you were made in China and shipped to Italy just for packing and reexportation to SG.

ARGH!!!!!!

If only you were cheaper. Or your manufacturer in China decides to make a AAA quality pirate piece.

Then I'll get to hold you in my arms...

*sigh*

Sometimes, I can't help but feel like I'm the happiest, luckiest girl alive on Earth with Daryl in my life.

And everyday I still thank God for him.

EVERYDAY!!

I love you x a thousand times!

(I was staring at you in the mirror when we were cuddling and I was hyperventilating & tearing a little cuz I still can't believe how amazing this is. It's like a fucking dream!)

And if it is, I don't ever want this to end!

X <3 X <3

Bag lust over bag candy.

I'm in love with the Red Glitter Furla Candy Bag.

The boutique at Paragon has TWO left.

I'll be damned if it runs out of stock before I get my hands on it.

SGD450 for this piece of plastic.


But what can I say? I'm nuts over EVERYTHING PLASTIC! Because they last, require little to NO maintenance, is WATER PROOF, JUICE PROOF, ALCOHOL PROOF, WEATHER PROOF, unlike leather bags that dry up, and wear out over time and cost a fucking bomb to repair. Ughs.


I've bought a pair of United Nude heels that I've only worn ONCE for 330 pounds, and I never regret, because that pair is just so BEAUTIFUL!


The pair of Melissa that Daryl bought for me is my ultimate favourite, after the Father Figure threw my old White Melissa Campana out, because it was beyond repair. (Yes, darlings, PLASTIC HEELS ONCE WORN OUT CAN'T BE REPAIRED! BUT IT LASTED FOR 4 YEARS OF DAILY WEAR!)


Anyway, I've bought multiple pairs of lovely plastic Melissa shoes since my first white pair at 17.


Actually, I've owned TWO pairs of white Melissa Heels since, but all has been dumped by the Father Figure because he's THAT FUCKING MEAN.


=(


I DIGRESS!
They had a solid black version, but it's sold out. Anyway, it isn't as outstanding.

Ebay is selling the Black Glitter version for USD$177. It's more than half the price.

BUT IT JUST CAN'T COMPARE WITH THE RED GLITTER!!!

Wanted the Brown version with skin, but felt that the Red was more outstanding and the brown felt duller in contrast. PLUS! It's freaking SGD550!!

ARGH!!!!

I'm gonna get my hands on it, no matter what!

Or maybe I should sleep on it and think if I still love it.

Perhaps it's a one night stand.

=/

And then, there is still the Birkin...

Anyone with SGD10,000 to spare?

>_<"

Tragic disappointment.

:-/.

I hope I'll never have to do that.

Anyway, exam ended.

Time to work hard for my future- our future.

My savings have finally run dry and D is literally taking care of me now. I'm glad I've decided to move on in my career, because I've picked up what I could, and I need money now to survive!

Lord, give me the drive and the perseverance to pull through and achieve what I'm meant to achieve. As always, I leave my life in your hands.
And I can't thank You enough for my Aircon worshipping cute as hell, sweet and so amazingly telepathic boyfriend! I pray for acceptance of him into my family and mine in his. If it is meant to be, please Lord, take it easy on us! I thank you once again in Jesus' name! Amen!

Pwned, bitch!

Queen Bitch took Father Figure's (He was snoring so damn loudly. And only the Queen Bitch wakes at unholy hours to drink water and text trashy insults.) phone and sent me this shit, only to receive my reply and barge into me room to see me asleep.

Quinsy: 1

Queen Bitch: 0

"Every moment spent without you, I spend it thinking of you."

Was suppose to head to school today for revision but I lost my bloody sense of direction and got lost in Singapore's MRT tracks.

Daryl came to my rescue but he lost the mood for school when he realized almost half the class was in school mugging. Lol.

He hates clusterfuckery.

( I hate noise when I'm mugging.)

So we headed to Great World City's TCC for dinner ( they raised prices and changed the menu. The pasta no longer taste as good and their teas have cheapened in quality. What used to be a nice pot even after three top ups now taste like water after one and a half.)

Anyway, I digress. We did some note consolidation and strategized our exam question plans.

XD

<3 alone time with D.

P.s: He paid for my dental! YAY!!!

TTM EPISODE 90210

Please let this happiness last. I don't want this to ever end.

Don't break my heart!

Please?

:-/

(actually whenever I see him or his pictures on my phone, I feel like I'm the luckiest girl alive.

And then I think good things are too good to be true, and maybe this is just an evil prank for whichever reason to get back at me.

Then maybe one day when I wake up, it will all disappear like a dream.

Because I've yet to experience good long lasting relationships before.

It's always the guy being too nice out of guilt, or I'll do something stupid to fuck it up.

What if this time, it's both?!

OMG...

I'm rambling again...)

Blanked out at the exam hall.

:-/

God please, let me pass!

Don't like it when people don't know how to respect people's beliefs.

You may talk about people and their over zealous behaviors towards religion but please don't insult.

God please, enlighten their shallow minds and not let misguided lost sheeps tarnish your name.

Somedays...

Somedays like today, when my hormones rage and surge, I go crazy and think I might lose him.

For whichever stupid reason my overworked brain can think of.

Today was my inability to say his Chinese name right.

Yesterday was his mother.

I wonder what tomorrow would bring. Zzz.

Anyway. I'm exhausted. Good night!

Period cramp better not handicap me this week! I have exams and work to do!!

Rebuild savings! Squirrel time!

And yes, like all bloody squirrels, I forget where my money is stashed and park.

Just yesterday I realized I had forgotten my log in pin for my Standard Charted account.

Yay to card refusal.

I'm such a bloody genius.

Bad acid reflux from the sambal egg and curry keeping me wide awake.

Ughs.

Dear God, money drop from sky please? Thanks!

At this rate, parents I'll never get married.

Mothers hate me. Fathers think I'm too aloof.

I'm just phobic of parents. Especially since mine are such Tormentors, I can only expect others' to be the same.

I've yet to be wrong, since parents never took a liking to me...

Why can't I just elope?! Or just live in with my boyfriend without parents?!

Urgh...

I know your niggling fears, but please trust me, dear.

No one's coming near to where my heart is.

Irony here; I have the same fears.

You allay mine, I'll allay yours.

Put all our doubts and reservations to rest.

Because we are two peas in a pod. We live happily nestled together, side by side till the day we die. Connected by that invisible cord of telepathy.

Simply. <3

Oh hi, I know you're reading this.

IFLY!

Today I made him order at Fei Fei Wanton Mee.

He over ordered like how I usually do. And for two, we ate $25 worth of food.

Lol!

He gave me a tiny surprise, and bought me this!

Happiness!!!

But I was worried when I saw his unhappy face. He was so stressed from work, it bothered me😭

I wish I could hug away every bit of stress and discontent in him.

But I guess the best thing he can do right now is to find a better job that fits him.

He's in the wrong environment for him to grow in.

As it is always said in recruitment, "Right Fit" is necessary for a person to grow in any corporation.

And he does not fit into that right now.

Dear Lord, please land D with a career that truly fits him so that he may enjoy his work. Amen!!