Met up with WenHui today for lunch and went to Cornerstone Church with her. Another charismatic church with rock bands, tongues and a crying priest who kept asking us to donate.

=,=

But the atmosphere wasn't as bad, and there were more youths.

Had lunch with her at Katong Mall's famour Boneless Chicken Rice, and as we were leaving, bumped into Justin and R.

I felt the blood drain out of my face and my heart shatter.

It's like seeing him everytime makes me sad.

*Sigh*

I feel like just hugging him and cry everytime it happens and that sucks.

Shards of my heart with tears and blood.

Big Fish Seafood Grill!

Met up with W.Q today for dinner at Big Fish Seafood Grill!!

I can't remember the exact address, but it's just right beside Pasta Fresca de Salvtore and Megumi!! He drove and we got there through ECP and Bedok, I think.

<3

>_<


For our Appetizers, we had Deep Fried White Bait, Octopus Salad without Salad (special request for us only!) and Escargot Gratin! I'm can't remember the full name of all the food cuz W.Q ordered most of it for me, and his choices in food are never wrong!

<3>

*sigh*

Escargot. In pastry crust with cheese and parsley. Plus other heavenly bits I forgot.

Each bite sent me up to Heaven and back. *swoons*

I have no idea how to describe it's heavenly taste, man. You'll just have to try it to know the FEEELING.

The squid was really yummy, each bite was not too chewy like over cooked ones some restaurant serve, and W.Q requested it without salad.The Fried White Bait was fresh and not oily at all! Didn't even have to squeeze lemons onto it to reduce the oiliness.

Dipped in the tar tar sauce, it was really yummy and apettizing! Cuz usually oily food would just make me feel really full and icky afterwards but this one had none of that!

=D To accompany our seafood, W.Q ordered a Reisling wine, 2007 ( I forgot the name of the Reisling. LOL.)

For a wine so young, it was really sweet and clean on the palate. LOL. It wasn't too dry like some I've tried too.

AND THEN ANOTHER FAVOURITE!

LOBSTER BISQUE WITH CHUNKS OF LOBSTER MEAT INSIDE!!!!!

AND IT WAS VERY FRESH!

*swoons*

For our main course, he had this baked fish in bread crumbs, I think. With asparagus and other veggies under it. LOL.

Blehs. I don't know about his food cuz I was so absorbed in mine, I didn't bother trying his. LOL.



Mine was a fucking creamy and yummy Lobster Ragout! One of their Signature dishes in Big Fish Seafood Grill!!

There were chunks of lobster meat in there too with weirdly juicy and unsoggy tomato bits!

>_< Dessert!!

We both wanted to order Tiramisu at first, but then he was gracious and gave up his Tiramisu for Creme Brulee which I was going to order in place of my Tiramisu too. LOL.
I tried the Creme Brulee and it was perfectly caramalized on the outside, soft and smooth inside!!

With sugar dust and all yummy berries!

The Tiramisu (another signature dish), was really fucking yummy. >_<>

Blueberries, dragon fruit cubes, sstrawberries and preserved plums at the sides. =p~

I ate everything!!
We had great conversations during dinner, and time really flies when you're having a good time! LOL.
WE started dinner at 7pm, but by the time dessert came, it was 9pm!

Long and wonderful dinners are extremely rare, I think. And to find someone whom I can chat and talk with so freely is even rarer these days.

By the time dinner ended for us, it was already closing time at 10pm. LOL.

Three hours! LOL. Took a slow walk to the car park and drove home!

Relationships are hard to deal with, but relationships with other fucking factors like a bitch in the house to interfere when everything's fine makes it tougher. I've ended many would've been wonderful relationships because of the stress faced at home. I haven't been blogging about it nor have I been open about it to people concerned becuase it's just too difficult to talk about it... like, I'm sick and tired of talking and going through the same shit again.

*sigh*

The Queen Bitch is at it again. Stealing into my cousin's Facebook profile and with it, sent insulting messages onto my Facebook. WTF.

I was out dinning with W.Q when X.Y called me to inform me of her misdeamour (??) [I need a stronger word than that.]

I had no choice but to do some damage control once home. Had to delete all her stupid messages before too many people read it, and gave her a piece of my mind.

Sadly, she seems unrepentant and seems set to do more stupid things.

I'll have to deal with her again. That jobless, bored bitch is out to cause more trouble in her free time.

I have had enough of her shit and this has to stop.

so many thoughts.

ZIRCA AND REBEL ARE BORING!

ARGH!

YESTERDAY'S NIGHT OUT WAS PRETTY SUCKY.

ALEX GOT THE INVITATION INTO ZIRCA but he was underaged, and the fucking club was fucking strict.

So in the end we went into Rebel, where the club was EMPTY at 11pm, and stayed half empty all through the night till 2am.

WTF.

In between, I just went out to meet Vincent to get him to dance with me in Rebel, but he didn't. He danced with me in Zirca instead.

Got to know the baggage girl in Rebel. LOL.

I managed to go into Zirca in the end and the club music sucked. Trance and House didn't pull the crowds to start dancing, and even though the papers hyped it up to be "Las Vegas" style night revenue with dancers and shit, it just didn't happen.

Pathetic.

Vinc and I are like convinced Zirca won't last. LOL.

Rebel can't heck it either.

Cuz nobody would want to pay DOUBLE entry into a club that was a single entity.

Doesn't help that the old Smoove venue's fucking small.

Too many Minahs and weird fucks hanging around Rebel. Not the kinda place I would want to hang out.

Think I'd rather stick to chilling in pubs and bars for now.

No tanning today! Ugh. Sam's sick. Damn it.

BUT! I'll be dinning with my beloved W.Q who just POP-ed on Tuesday. LOL.

Woo~!

Make lemonades out of lemons.

SICK yet sociable.

TODAY I GOT TO LEARN FUCKING KARL FISCHER!

WTF.

I HATE KARL FISCHER. THE FUCKING MACHINE IS LIKE SEXIST.

It only works when males are fondling it. And it just fucking refuse to work when females touch it.

DAmn it.

Anyway, I've been meeting Justin for almost everyday since Monday, and I've been crying almost everytime when I see him.

It's just totally fucked up. *sigh*

I'll most probably be going to Zirca's club opening tomorrow night if Alex gets the invitations. If not I'll be out dining with W.Q, and on Saturday I'll be tanning at Sentosa with Samson!

<3

Thailand's unrest is getting worse, and I wonder if our Graduation Tour to Thailand in March next year will be affected.

Would we be able to cancel the trip and get our refunds then?

>_<

I'm not crazy about guys at the moment, since those I've gotten to know outside my social circle so far are pretty off the mark.

Sigh. I'm worried about my health.

Couldn't breathe today while doign Seta/crackle. I suspect I've been inhaling too much poisonous fumes even though the test was done in a sort of working fume hood.

How does one know if the fume hood is working properly anyway?

LOL.

Sick and stoned.

Work was blah. Cuz I was too stoned with medication.

I missed the bus today, and Khalis was nice enough to offer me a ride to Boon Lay.

LOL.

I miss bike rides.

Crystalised more things today for the Q.B.

Did 2 angels, for the grave of the E.G.

>_<

Money Faced.

So I broke up with Justin OFFICIALLY today.

And I was told that he had found a job. So I'm just happy for him that he now has a stable job and that my prayers were answered.

But what makes me so sad right now, is that because of the break up, he has turned against me, calling me a 'liar' and 'money faced'.

Which is as good as saying that I'm a money faced lying bitch.

I don't deny that I love money, cuz money = stability and security for me. (For those who know.) Which are just the peeps from PRCS, ND and Jabie, I think. No one else knows shit, so yeah.

But anyone else whom I've never bothered with explanations won't really know. In case some THINK that they know shitloads about me, it's best I clarify.

I've lost the ability to love someone with my heart, maybe since the first two boyfriends, because when one HAS to find some way to survive, one can't get too fucking emotional.

And yes, I admit, for a period of time, I was out for a boy stable enough to just marry me and get me out of this fucking place.

Isn't that just pathetic?

I don't know. That's just how I feel now.

Maybe those who don't know me will roll their fucking eyes and say "Oh, please." But yeah, that's how I feel.

And I just don't like the fact that Justin wasn't gracious when we broke up and yet kept trying to make me feel bad just because I felt that I had to tell him that I have no feelings for him anymore.

Ugh.

NOW AT FUCKING 3AM HE WANTS TO PATCH UP?!

WTF.

I don't know what he fucking wants from me anymore.

Perhaps just for me to die of a slow torturous disease or for me to burn in eternal damnnation. I suppose that's waht he wants since he's petty by nature.

"The male fox will mate for life, and if the female dies, he remains single for the rest of his life. However, if the male dies, the female will hook up with a new mate."

I'm down with severe sore throat and I've lost the ability to speak. My head feels like it's spinning, and I can't breathe right.

T_T

I'm mute for the day...
and away from work!

Funny how all doctors assume I smoke though I've never touched those cancer sticks.

UGH!

Manic Monday.

Learnt Soot today.

Shitloads of samples. Broke my nails again. Had to handover my leftovers (samples were impossible to complete).

Met Justin for dinner.

I cried.

Because I'm scared of being with him when he's jobless. (Call me materialistic or shallow, whatever.)

TO me, money is important. A job is important. Without a job, with no savings, no money, there's hardly anyway to survive in Singapore.

And even with plans to immigrate, YOU STILL NEED MONEY TO RELOCATE.

SO yeah. I'm money minded.

I dream to be a tai tai. SO sue me. At least I admit and don't deny.

Food, loads of food!

Met up with W.Q today for lunch and movie E!Hub, and once again, he DROVE. LOL.

I find it super cute and lazy when both of us live like a few blocks away from each other and E!Hub's only a 10 minute walk away. But I still like that little creature comfort anyway.

=p

Lunch at Buddy Haogies sucked. The food tasted bland and was over priced.

Their salmon pasta tasted like some zhi char Hokkien mee, and worst still, it was so bland that I couldn't even taste the Salmon. -.-!!!



Their Hoagies were levels below Burger King's and it cost twice as much.



Their rosti was soggy.



We shouldn't have tried Buddy Hoagie's. I shouldn't have suggested trying it out. Bad choice. Should've stuck to New York New York.



Anyway, Quantum of Solace was kinda nice, but too short to make it shiok.



Treated W.Q to Fondue at Fondu on level 1, and their fondue was pretty good!

So I made a bad choice on the lunch venue and a good one for dessert.

=D

Happy day.

Long blog post.

Pictures of the day Justin gave me back his watch.

Dinner at Riverside Point's Brewerkz.

Something that relates to me. (Justin gave me this link today.)

- Beyonce Knowles Lyrics

Friday was spent clubbing with Darren and his 20 over Airforce mates at Phuture.

Dancing all over, downing liquors in jugs, it was fucking fun.

=x

Night ended around 3am in the club. Beers and chit chat by the bench, drunk men by the sidewalk, puke all over. LOL.

I like nights like these sometimes. As long as the puker isn't me, and I'm just watching.

Some girl's boyfriend went off with another girl while she went to a corner and cried. Tragic. Sometimes it's best for a girl to be prepared when she agrees to club with her boy. =.=...

Airforce guys ARE Hot.

Excessive blood loss kills.

Took a cab to work again.

I'm getting from broke to fucking pennyless.

Bad day.

I'm tres emofique.

=(

I woke up late at 6:30am, had to rush and cab to work, and then I realised that my fucking safety shoes were no longer safe cuz the front half of my soles CAME OFF.

WTF.

Then there were shitloads of samples to deal with and I broke my nails again in the process of the rush. (God, I felt like taking MC and skipping work, but I didn't.) I just couldn't seem to complete all those 400 samples all at once.

But I somehow managed, and only handed over the key-in and slot-ins to the afternoon shift.

I think I've somehow lost my lucky star along the way yesterday and now everything doesn't seem to go so well.

But life still has to go on, and I've got great online friends to help cheer me up.

I'm going to go out with Darren on Friday to club and get all drunk and high, and maybe I'll feel happy.

My TP is tomorrow and I really wish/hope/pray that I pass. I really need to start driving myself around, or I'll go crazy without my own transport.

*sigh*

I wish JB will be free to accompany me tomorrow since JT is no longer around.

=(

I need to shop for new safety shoes.

Single. (I've got acid and alkaline burns.)

After 4 straight days of quarrelling and misunderstandings, we broke up.

His screams and shouts and blabberings bounced off me like soft balls to wall.

It left little marks and it didn't seem to affect me.

I suppose work has drained me and numbed me up. Like anesthesia before the operation. Conscious yet unfeeling.

We left in opposite directions and the nearer I got to home, the anesthesia seemed to wear off and emotions sipped in a little.

7 months didn't seem such a long time with him, and yet I didn't feel very much in love.
(Any idea how it feels like? Let me know.)

I've merely been jumping from one guy to the other, lead by wandering lust and in seek of excitement, and some survival instincts.

>_<

I'VE REALISED THAT ALL I WANTED WAS FOR HIM TO PROTECT ME... from EVERYTHING.

But of course he couldn't. And I kept ending up wearing the pants and going through the same shit I had with all the other guys I've been with.

I think right now I'm fucking tempted to go back to him because of sympathy and the refusal to let go of the past, but I shouldn't. Because I don't think I love him.

Realise I keep thinking, but I don't feel.

WHY??????

I'm in need of a big big hug. Anything to put me back in that purple bubble again.

=(

P.S: Learnt TAN and TBN today!! (something to smile about?)

The jaded faded frog.

I'm fucking emo and bloody wary of the people around me.



The frog prince who used to grace clean and green ad campaigns (those who used to see it will know the smiley frog on that damed lilly pad), finally came out of his smelly bin hole.



And he doesn't look as green as he used to.

The years has done him in.

The shrunken, faded, jaded frog.

*sigh*

I think I no longer like Justin.

Situations have been pushing me towards a direction of apathy and dislike.

Maybe it's the hormones. Or the fact that we've been apart for too long without effective communication.

I don't know... but right now I just feel very apathetic. Too tired to give a damn.

Anyway, I managed to complete all SETA and Crackle tests today and the shift leader was very surprised.

=.=!!

Went out with Wan, Aein, Khalis and Madina after work to celebrate Madina's end of internship in the company.

=p

Had dinner at Bugis' Seoul Garden, and then Wan drove us to Arab street where they smoked Shisha and we played games.

Obviously, I declined to smoke it, and supported Aein to decline the offer as well.

LOL. Khalis was freaking cute!!

We were at Seoul Garden eating right, and he went to take this extremely small portion of Coffee Chicken for himself. LOL, I mean it's nothing wrong, but we were expecting him to like take more to share or try other varieties.

And when we told him to go 'take more', he went on to take a HUGE plate of COFFEE CHICKEN, when we meant to 'take more variety of meat'. LOL.

And he was just super cute when we were playing games la!

LOL.

Cute little boy.

His actions just made our day in the yucky lab!!

=D

Charred fingers.

Finally, I'm taught something new. But the stupid vacuum used to suck off used oil was poorly insulated and in the end it fucking cooked my finger tips.

Grr.

Anyway, I managed to complete the tests required, so it wasn't so bad.

At least I learnt something new! I can't tolerate being sidelined and put to do the basics while some are allowed to move on and learn new things.

*sigh*

We, interns are so scummy that the company D&D only offered us a chance to join when there were left over space in the cruise. ughness.

Anyway, they asked me as a last resort, I think, and I politely declined, of course, cuz I won't want to mix and mingle too much and end up with some shit for them to hurl at me.

Today alone, I was accused to doing mistakes MADE BY OTHERS TWICE!

>_<

But it's ok. I'll grin and bear it.

Three months and two weeks more to go.

BORED phuck

I'm irrevocably bored.

Extremely, Utterly, BORED.

I haven't got any mood to blog either.

Something, SOMEONE, please, intrigue me.

<3 HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!

WOOHOO~!

HALLOWEEN WAS SO FUCKING FUN!!

TOO BAD I DIDN'T GET TO CLUB ON HALLOWEEN BEFORE!!

I'M SO GONNA CELEBRATE HALLOWEEN FROM NOW ON!

WOOHOO~!

Work on Halloween was boring, because there wasn't much work, and I had to go look for sai gang to do to keep myself occupied and away from sitting around gossiping like the others!

Ugh, they were like sitting in the lab chit chatting loudly while the boss was away, and I was like the only idiot packing samples and cleaning the stupid lab.

grr...

I could've sat around telling tales of my life, but I guess I just wasn't interested in ruining my reputation as the 'player' in the lab unlike others.

LOL.

Anyway, I was so fucking psyched about the AFTERHOURS, that I couldn't just sit still.

=D

M was like fucking late in meeting me, and in the end Justin and I went to rent a room to slack, eat and change and hung around SMU until 10pm before I cabbed down to meet him at Zouk with his friend!

Ughness!!

When we arrived at Zouk, the queue was so fucking long, it was impossible for us to go in!! We queued for like 15 minutes and decided it was better for us to head down to Attica where their friends were.

LOL.

In that 15 minutes of queueing, we got like 10 people asking to take a picture with us!!

Woop~!

Apparently there were hardly anyone dressed up as cops!! And I guess I was kinky enough. LOL.

=.=!

On the way out of Zouk, we saw this group dressed as PAP!! ROFL!!

All white, WITH MISS JAOQUIM ORCHID GARLANDS AND a freaking clipboard!!

They fucking walked and waved at me and I just saluted them. ROFL.

=D

The PAPs were my favourite costume!!

We cabbed down to Attica, and on the way to there, ( we were walking around Clark Quay for a bit), shitloads of people came and asked to take more pictures with us!!

For a moment there, I felt like a tourist's attraction. LOL.

And then the fun parts came!!

We went to Attica and walked to the queue, but then the bouncer came up to us and was lilke, "M'am, sir, you two, GO right in front of the queue." *macho thumb action.*

!!!

I was like, Ooh, okays. LOL.

And then we got to cut the damn queue and entered the club free and easy!!

But his friend went to the loo and got stuck. He wasn't allowed to enter the club and in the end we had to buy a bottle to go in!

LOL. Actually, I didn't pay for the bottle la. LOL.

Free party~!

Danced, danced, dranks shots!!

The three of us finished the whole bottle we bought, and his other friend came and we downed like 6 shots each or something, I can't remember.

It came in a BIG BOWL of Shredded ice with test tubes containing the shots!!

TEST TUBES!!

Yes, I think we drank Test tubes.

Yummilicious fruity shit.

<3

Took shitloads of pitures with strangers and lost our props in the process. LOL.

I lost my furry handcuffs, he lost his wig, and his friend lost his MASK!!

But it wasn't as bad though, cuz I saw credit cards, jackets, and other disemembered monster parts on the floor (tails, wings, and random tentacle limbs). LOL.

We partied till 5am, and kinda gave up finding our things ever, cuz I guess some guys picked our things up and used it as props for a kinky afterparty. LOL.

Handcuffed, masked and wigged.

LOL.

Our party ended at around 5am, and we were sitting outside by the club when this MIDDLE AGED CAUCASIAN AROUND 50?! tried to pick me up. LOL.

Too bad I was too stoned to bother.

And I kinda hate being picked up by Caucasians.

LOL.

Cab fare home was almost $40 cuz I was in a Chrysler. Christ. So fucking expensive! But the seats were comfy and there was music.

I slept in the cab. LOL.

Can't wait for them to send me the pictures!

<3