I've been having a hard time keeping my spirits up, to be honest. Crying every night is going to make me blind sooner than later.

I seem to have lost my will to socialise. Staying in my room the whole day seems to suit me fine. Making excuses to stay in my room makes me feel safe.

I really dislike human interaction these days.

I can't wait to move out and be left alone all day.

I feel horribly depressed. Did a goldberg test online. It says I'm severely depressed. But i haven't killed myself yet. Maybe tonight will push me to do it.

I'm sorry.

I really miss my grandparents.