Away from the snide remarks, away from negativity. I'm truly me.

I like it how he secretly arranges the icons on my phone because he is pedantic this way.

And some nights when he mumbles and talks in his sleep. And how he randomly cuddles me really tight and just won't let me go.

I love him so much.

It's awesome living together.

And I don't regret one bit. He takes care of me really well, and I get to fuss over him daily. It's great! <3

Can't wait to see him again tonight.

I feel so safe in my hiding place. Away from the Tormentors and that negative environment.

Frolic freely!

Exam went pretty well! For once, I wrote 4 pages for a question. And it was an exam that no one could mug for because it tested all our general knowledge!

The muggers all died in the exam. Woohoo!

New job is going to start on November 1. I want to head to Malaysia after on the 5th. Think I shall request to start on the 6th instead.

XD

Shall heat up left over pasta for lunch!

Baby, if you are reading this; I LOVE YOU!!!!

I can't sleep. I finally got to watch American Beauty with Daryl.

I'm sinking into depression. I can feel the clouds looming over me. I'm afraid that this genetic depression caused by years stuck in a negative environment and subjected to a loony's abuse is having an effect on me as a person.

Or I'm just a person easily affected by bad bitches.

Whichever it is, I'm subconsciously entertaining thoughts of suicide like how it used to be years ago.

This is not a good sign. I need a way out. I'm suffocating. The ex company, HSBC Ins sent me letters through FedEx. I haven't had the chance to look at it. But whenever letters are sent via a dispatcher, it is never good.

I have half a mind never to receive that mail. I don't mind never knowing what's inside either, since the day I knew who the managing director of the group was and how he screamed and threw a fit just because an office boy did something wrong and threatened to sue him, I pretty much think he'll try to sue just about anyone who leaves the company and has nothing good to say at the exit interview.

What a bad reputation he has given himself & his group.

The agents in there are just a bunch of sly money suckers and to be honest, I'm really glad I left the moment I had it all figured out. If I were to stay any longer I think I would've become like them and that doesn't bode well for me mental and spiritual health.

Thank you Lord for showing me the true colors of this industry. I hope stricter regulations come soon.

I just want to stop the sadness. But I can't.

I wish I to be carefree and unrestricted from this humdrum of life.

I wish I to be happier and less worried about being unemployed and I really wish HSBC Insurance would just leave me alone.

Leaving a corporation shouldn't be this hard but this TSD just refuse to leave me alone.

I'm very bothered. Because its just another unhappy episode that I really wish to leave behind yet this group just bugs me non stop. That bitchy manager makes me as angry as Quern Bitch does.

Oh lord, please grant me peace in my heart and let me sleep in peace without unpleasant dreams.

She's crazy.

Dad cooks porridge and steams some dim sum an hour and a half ago. Leaves it on the table for an hour with the QB sitting at the table. No one touches the food. It gets cold. He starts screaming for people to eat the food.

NO ONE EATS THE HAR GAO.

I go for a shower, comes out of the bathroom and I start chomping at the Har Gao & help finish the rest of the food no one seems to take interest in.

Half way through, the Queen Bitch decides to engage me for battle.

She claims I'm eating all the food alone and not sharing.

HELLO, the food was in front of you for an hour and a half, you were not even eating the food.

SUDDENLY WHEN I'M EATING WHAT YOU ALL DON'T LIKE THE FOOD BECOMES THE BEST DELICACY ON EARTH?!

She even snatches the fork out of my hand and stops me from eating.

I stop eating, go into my room. She starts hurling insults about my grandmother, my dead grandpa and the human anatomy.

NO ONE EATS THE FOOD.

Get me out of here.

I baked yesterday, and the disappointment of burning the first batch nearly made me cry.

I was attempting to bake Ice Cream Cupcakes. But I couldn't find the right cone and I think I might have overfilled the cones with batter.

The entire batch only had a few cones made edible. =(

But Daryl was so freaking encouraging and ate the cones. HE said it was nice. =/

So freaking love him. He's so bloody encouraging.

Thank you Lord for Daryl. <3 p="p">

就是怕你会离开。

Bad management

"When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse"

I felt exactly like that when I was in that darned HSBC INS.

Bad management destroyed what could have been an amicable and enjoyable working relationship.

And now it's ruined. The impression and the hopes I once had of this industry has been totally sullied by this bad experience. Never again.

HSBC insurance clawed back $1000 in cold hard cash after hearing of my intention to resign.

The female manager posted very mean things an hour after my resignation, which reaffirmed my decision.

I've made the right choice to leave.

Too many things have happened in this short period of time that has left a very bad taste in my mouth.

But justice will be served and the evil will not last.

God will be the judge.

What good is a big house, when you have no one to live in it?

What good is a big car, when you're the only one in it?

What good is your facade of fame, when you have no one to share it with?

What good is your fortune, when you die with no one to pass it on, and no time to enjoy it?

What good is a great career, when you hurt your health building it?

I've no regrets now if I were to die tomorrow.