Dear God, am I made out for this? Why do I feel that I'm just not good enough? :-/

I just need a good income to get married and live happily with him together. That's all I ask for. Amen

I feel so much better today. The negative effects of the pills might have worn off it seems.

Hormonal

I will give myself till the end of the year.

To give it my best shot.

If it goes well, I'll stay.

If things do not get better, and I can't stabilize by then; I suppose it would be wise to leave and cut my losses.

As much as I wish for things to work out, these stress is not improving my health.

PCOS has totally ravaged and fucked up my mind and body from the hormonal imbalance from my body and the pills I've been ordered to take to retune my hormones.

Daryl can see the difference, and the drastic mood changes are hard to handle.

I admit I'm taken aback by my own mood swings too.

I may be naturally pessimistic by environment and upbringing, but this new pessimism and stress has developed into a black cancerous tumour.

Oh Lord, what am I supposed to do?

 I need an outlet for this negativity, a way to drive it away for good.

I feel very weary of my colleagues.

And I'm resentful of the way the upper management push for sales. Like slave drivers, my freedom is restricted, with limited rewards.

The ways of business is out dated, and highly inefficient.

There has to be a better way to do things. But the red tape and restrictions when it comes to advertising is stifling.

Oh Lord, please show me the way my career should go.

Amen.

It feels like a dream, to have found my gentleman.

A man whom I thought only exist in fairy tales and novels of fiction.

Thank you Lord. I think my dreams are really coming through.

I long for the day when we can finally live together and form our own home.

I've been really busy and my leg isn't healed. I wanted to see the doctor again but I couldn't because by the time I reached the clinic, they had no slots left to see me.

My knees are hurting like a bitch and I really need a good cure to this pain once and for all. :(

Dear Lord, please let me rest and recuperate fully. Please fulfill my positive wishes. Amen

<3

Break a leg

Fell down the stairs at the call centre the other day.

I guess it's God's way of telling me to rest and destress.

I'm extremely blessed to have him. To know that he'll stay by my side through thick and thin.

💜💜💜💜

I just need you in my life.

One day I'll just leave.

I think I'm going to bleed to death.

For four months my period went MIA. And suddenly out of the damn blue on Wednesday, it decided to release the red tide.

I've been bleeding through for 3 days now and the pain has rendered me useless at work.

ARGH!