Was getting a massage at Go60 today after work and a long day of meeting.

Masseuse is only 21 and just recently BTO-ed for a flat and managed to get a unit.

Earning just under $2000 a month, her husband and her made the decision to put their entire life on credit for the sake of having a family.

And I wonder why can't we do the same.

Probably because my occupation has no steady income and Daryl is scared as hell to take a leap of faith.

My health is in the gutter, and that makes it harder for me to earn a steady income in this line.

It's shit.

I feel responsible for my clients and I feel guilty should I leave.

But without a steady income, he will never want to commit.

Perhaps I'm really fated to wait till 32 before I'll ever own my own property.

Which probably means a late marriage and no kids, since I don't want to risk the birth of a child with an extra chromosome.

Which defeats the purpose of marriage anyway.

I think I should just vanquish any thoughts of matrimony.

Singularity gives me less problems and stress to deal with.

I'm freaking out.

I'm freaking out because I can't trust myself to be gainfully employed in a mundane 9am - 5pm desk job.

I'm stressing out because this work as a Financial Planner is giving me a lot of pressure. And I'm giving myself more stress than I can handle.

I'm freaking out because my health is crumbling under pressure and the money I earn has been used up for my medical bills.

I'm freaking out because at this rate, I won't be able to save enough for marriage or housing.

I'm freaking out because Singapore is becoming more unlivable by the day.

A pigeon hole for a million dollars is just ridiculous.

I'm better off single at this rate.

To just patiently wait till the age of 35 before I buy my own house.

No care, no worries.

Meet the Tormentors.

Field day.

Thank you Lord for this day!

The Queen Bitch swallowed her words quite literally when she appeared for dinner at Soup Restaurant, which was supposed to be an introductory dinner just for the Father Figure.

Daryl bought Peony Jade's traditional yam paste filo pastry moon-cakes for the family, because I asked him to. Lol.

This tactic worked really well and shut her up after the sumptuous dinner.

He didn't do much planning for the dinner, so we pretty much pulled a last minute stunt and decided to eat at Soup Restaurant which we had Just dined in the day before.

But the food was good and the service was fantastic regardless of branch and location. (Ate at Changi Airport's branch the day before.)

Tormentors came an hour late as usual, while we starved in the restaurant waiting for them.

The FF almost wanted to order extras but I stopped him in time, for the food portions were more than enough to feed 5 person easily.

We were stuffed at the end of dinner and she couldn't stop praising the food.

Conversation went well, and they seemed satisfied with him.

We win.

She even thanked D for the good food and moon cakes.

And they ate the moon cake right after getting home despite the filling dinner.

I just hope it will be easier when itsz my turn to impress his father.

Thank you lord!

I want to know more about you.

Forever fan girl

I will forever be your fan girl.

Just can't stop swooning when you sing or play the bass.

Can't help giggling when you wink. Can't help sighing when you sing. Can't help blushing when you smile at me.

It's silly. But I'm happy and at ease around you and I can't stop myself from being silly.

I love you.

What could have happened had I not confessed, made my liking for you so bloody obvious and invited you on an impromptu holiday?

Would we still be together?

Would you love me?

Spending our days lazing around and enjoying the company of each other.

I don't need anything more to be entertained.

If it is meant to be, it will be.