I'm a fucking WAG. LOL.

Friday was spent at work. Office in the day, and attending client's dinner at Marina Mandarin at night. Loads of wine and socialising. But I wasn't performing well...

Hung around STGCC for two whole days and it was brain numbing.

Because I was dead tired emotionally and physically, I've not been doing very well.

Every night's a puke fest. And I'm not loving it. I'm fine in the day, it's just the nights. FML.

Doesn't help that every now and then I find Cal flirting and tackling girls online, lying through his teeth to appease me, and making empty promises. With the aide of Absinthe, he seems to be able to lie better with loads of sweet nothings.

Because it all literally means nothing after the alcohol wears off.

Maybe I shouldn't doubt him. But he has a weak case to fight. It's so weak, it can't even be presented.

I'd seem reserved the past few days because I've not been feeling fine. *sigh*

Barely 3 months together and we're hardly working out. There's shitloads of issues to iron out. And I can say it's ALL HIM.

For once, I've been good. Like, REALLY REALLY GOOD. I think. Faithfulness-wise.

No flirting, no nothing. I didn't even drunk kiss random strangers while clubbing. pfft. I didn't even randomly grind any either. Haha.

See, I've been good. I didn't even meet new dudes online, nor fuck any of them. I'm just so damn Guai (obedient).

And I don't like it when my good behaviour isn't appreciated. I don't like it when I'm behaving and he's not.

It makes me ANGRY.

Que Sara, Sara. Whatever will be, will be.

Lord, if he isn't the one for me, Take Him Away. But if he is, Show me a strong signal that he's the one. Amen. Perhaps it's through my parent's approval. But his behaviour isn't appropriate, Lord. It makes me doubt him. I don't want to be with him any longer if he isn't the one for me although I do love him. I leave it all in your hands. Amen.