Apathy.

Seeing him today, it felt different.

For once, I actually felt that I was wanted. In a weird way.

I've given up trying to stop him from knowing other girls. If he refuses to commit, then I don't see the point in me committing.

If he sees meeting my parents and relatives as a sign of commitment on my part, which I do, he has yet to show me to his sister.

Not as if I want to meet his sister, because we might clash or her too deep thinking might make my brain shut down.

*shrugs*

I'm just awfully drained from school, work and Calvin.

If he cared enough, he would have been more of a gentleman. Too bad he isn't.

Tired of playing nice. Tired of being good. Tired of letting a person who don't care trample all over me.

I'll just smile and let it be.

You'll stop seeing the real side of me.

Happy guessing, happy trying to know me. Because suddenly, I don't feel like opening myself up anymore. The hurt and pain in the last months has hurt me enough. I've made enough advances.

It's now your turn to make things work.