Was getting a massage at Go60 today after work and a long day of meeting.

Masseuse is only 21 and just recently BTO-ed for a flat and managed to get a unit.

Earning just under $2000 a month, her husband and her made the decision to put their entire life on credit for the sake of having a family.

And I wonder why can't we do the same.

Probably because my occupation has no steady income and Daryl is scared as hell to take a leap of faith.

My health is in the gutter, and that makes it harder for me to earn a steady income in this line.

It's shit.

I feel responsible for my clients and I feel guilty should I leave.

But without a steady income, he will never want to commit.

Perhaps I'm really fated to wait till 32 before I'll ever own my own property.

Which probably means a late marriage and no kids, since I don't want to risk the birth of a child with an extra chromosome.

Which defeats the purpose of marriage anyway.

I think I should just vanquish any thoughts of matrimony.

Singularity gives me less problems and stress to deal with.