3 months. The stress has never been more.

Health is gone, wealth earned has been returned in the hopes of better returns. But I've come to realize that this isn't what I thought I had signed up for.

What I wanted was independence and freedom of time to generate a passive income for myself.

But what I've been thrown into, is a relentless vicious cycle of stress and targets and the absolute lack of time to do what I want, as and when I want to.

With managers breathing down my neck because of a less than stellar month, I'm off track, off target and absolutely demotivated and unable to handle this amount of pressure.

Corporate pressure is easily handled. But not this money sucking venture.

If I had opted for an office job, I suppose my health would have been in a better shape than now, without the aggravated knee and sleepless nights.

Stress has rendered me infertile from PCOS. And now I'll have to throw in more money to reverse the health damage if I want my own kids on the future.

All from this pursuit of money to get me out of the house.

But I suppose God had a reason to put me through this, because I knew somehow that he had no intention of letting me stay long in this state. He put me into this industry because I wanted to try it out, to make a point.

Now that I have won an award and made a point, there's nothing much else left for me here.

I just need a job for the long term.