Upset. Why can't life get easier for me?

I'm so tired of going through this phase over and over again.

A moment of wealth, then a seemingly endless lifetime of poverty and strife.

God, why?!

What is my calling? What am I supposed to do with my life? :-(

I'll never move out at this rate. Nor get to live the life I want.

If its going no where then please kill me and stop this suffering.