It's 10 text messages long. I'll send it to anyone who wants to know...
Heart is filled with sadness, but I know I must move on. I cannot allow him to drag me down any further.
I'm sorry if I screamed and made your tiring days difficult. I still love you.
I wanted to follow him to Church really badly last evening. But I didn't allow myself to do that even though he had extended his invitation.
I didn't want to see him and make him feel pressured by my presence, since he was sick of me and my tantrums.
But I was thinking of the lessons. Wishing I was there to listen to God's words. =(
I cried out to God a couple days before, and this morning in bed, I realised that I need HIM now more than ever.
This morning, I saw Wan's message on my wall.
"A religious person once told me, marry not for the love in the other party. But for his/her love in God."
And then it struck me.
I need God more than anything else right now. He'll lead the way and I'm sure that he will lead me to the RIGHT ONE.
It may be him, it may not be him. But whichever way it is, I trust God. And I'm sure I won't die a Spinster. LOL!
4 comments:
Nobody says that you can't go church alone! Try! All the best and remember you are God's beloved child.
God should exist in your heart and not in the church. You should feel him inside you wherever you are. You dont have to go to church to pray or to feel him. God dont exist in church. He doesnt live in the church. He lives in everyones heart.
I don't know how to go there alone. And I don't dare to go home alone at night after that.
God is in my heart. But I still need people to teach me the word of God, no? pfft.
Well, you don't have to go to a night church. =D there are some good churches around that conduct services throughout the day and are quite accessible (e.g. near train stations etc). so feel free to step into one.
Sometimes i like going to church alone, or sitting alone. Though its kind of loner, but the feeling is just different, in a good way.
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