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Sunday, January 2, 2011

2011...

A New Year with no cause for cheer.

On NYE, found out that Cal was too busy tackling other girls online to visit me while I was sick, asking her out for "FUN".

It's obvious what it means, I have no need to spell it out.

I felt thoroughly disgusted.

I can safely say that I no longer have any trust in him, and he will have to earn it back.

If he wants to play this game, I will play it with him. He'll never realise what hit him until it's too late.

Except for now, I'll just warn him. I'm not going to play the old game, unless push turns to shove.

Beef Cakes is back from the Himalayas. I hope the exodus has done him some good. Hehs.

I really wonder how this relationship is going to work out without trust.

Right now, I'm just being very open and candid to him about everything while he continues trying to hide and stow away his dirty little deeds bit by bit.

You can hide, but you'll never be able to escape from facing your deeds.

I'm quite pissed. I've been extending to him the option to break up so that he may continue with his old ways but he has continued to come back irregardless.
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Sometimes, I really wonder what the fuck is he trying to achieve by screwing around with me.

When push turns to shove, you'll wish you never knew me...

ANYWAY, I spent New Year's Day with him, sleeping from 6am till 6pm, having emotional sex with random outburst of tears and orgasms, though in an emotional state, the sex wasn't any good.

Made baked pasta for dinner with the leftovers from last night, and it was delicious! Had some Otah and Carlsberg while watching TV, and things kinda felt nice and normal until some clichéd lines from some random movie spoilt the mood.

My faith in a long lasting and trustworthy relationship has been pretty much ruined since being with Cal.

Absolutely, Utterly Jaded.

I wonder under what miracle will it ever be revived again, this faith.

I can only go on a step at a time, hoping for things to work out.

Is this love worth fighting for?

1 comment:

Ohana said...

How come all your current bf and ex bfs all like to screw around behind you and you are so dumb to have sex with them some more? Not scared of getting diseases from them?

Love yourself more. These guys are not worthy of your time.