The past year has not been a very good year for me. With the death of my beloved Grandma, I sank into a deep depression. Overcome with sadness, I lost my motivation.
I stopped working, stopped blogging, stopped interacting and socialising. Going out and meeting people became increasingly hard for me. Most days, I would stay home and craft (beading, cross stitching , blinging items and making miniatures, etc) the entire day.
I became a total recluse. And till this day, I still find it hard to meet up even with old friends and be as carefree as I was.
A heavy distrust and doubt holds me back.
No longer do I trust a person at face value. I seem to over analyse everything during social meetings and doubt the intentions of people.
But then again, maybe I've always been this way.
Anyway, I finally got married and it has been 5 months since we've moved out to live together.
The house has been in a semi state of mess. Because Daryl sees no need to unpack and keep all his purchases immediately and loves throwing it around the house and I do not have a decent work top for my craft projects.
I hate the mess. And I absolutely hate his whining.
I may bitch a lot but I sure as hell don't whine everyday.
ARGH AND I WAS MEANING TO BLOG SOME POSITIVITY.
OK POSITIVE THINGS.
1. WE HAVE A RENT FREE CONDO TO LIVE IN. THANKS TO MY WONDERFUL MOTHER IN LAW WHO IS MORE WONDERFUL THAN MY OWN MOTHER.
2. I AM NOT FORCED TO WORK NOW. SO I AM VERY BLESSED TO BE A TAI TAI. HALLELUJAH THANK YOU LORD FOR FULFILLING MY WISH.
3. I HAVE A NICE BALCONY GARDEN WITH FRESH HERBS OF BASIL, ROSEMARY, SPRING ONIONS, MINT, SCREWPINE, PARSLEY, GREEN BEAN AND TOMATO.
4. I GET TO DO MY MINIATURES AND ASSORTED CRAFT ITEMS DAILY.
5. MY HUSBAND LOVES ME A WHOLE LOT.
6. WE STILL HAVE A CAR. THOUGH WE WILL BE SCRAPING IT IN APRIL. :(
7. WEDDING IS IN MAY AND WE ARE BLESSED!
OK POSITIVE NOTE TO END THIS!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
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