Tragic disappointment.

:-/.

I hope I'll never have to do that.

Anyway, exam ended.

Time to work hard for my future- our future.

My savings have finally run dry and D is literally taking care of me now. I'm glad I've decided to move on in my career, because I've picked up what I could, and I need money now to survive!

Lord, give me the drive and the perseverance to pull through and achieve what I'm meant to achieve. As always, I leave my life in your hands.
And I can't thank You enough for my Aircon worshipping cute as hell, sweet and so amazingly telepathic boyfriend! I pray for acceptance of him into my family and mine in his. If it is meant to be, please Lord, take it easy on us! I thank you once again in Jesus' name! Amen!

Pwned, bitch!

Queen Bitch took Father Figure's (He was snoring so damn loudly. And only the Queen Bitch wakes at unholy hours to drink water and text trashy insults.) phone and sent me this shit, only to receive my reply and barge into me room to see me asleep.

Quinsy: 1

Queen Bitch: 0

"Every moment spent without you, I spend it thinking of you."

Was suppose to head to school today for revision but I lost my bloody sense of direction and got lost in Singapore's MRT tracks.

Daryl came to my rescue but he lost the mood for school when he realized almost half the class was in school mugging. Lol.

He hates clusterfuckery.

( I hate noise when I'm mugging.)

So we headed to Great World City's TCC for dinner ( they raised prices and changed the menu. The pasta no longer taste as good and their teas have cheapened in quality. What used to be a nice pot even after three top ups now taste like water after one and a half.)

Anyway, I digress. We did some note consolidation and strategized our exam question plans.

XD

<3 alone time with D.

P.s: He paid for my dental! YAY!!!

TTM EPISODE 90210

Please let this happiness last. I don't want this to ever end.

Don't break my heart!

Please?

:-/

(actually whenever I see him or his pictures on my phone, I feel like I'm the luckiest girl alive.

And then I think good things are too good to be true, and maybe this is just an evil prank for whichever reason to get back at me.

Then maybe one day when I wake up, it will all disappear like a dream.

Because I've yet to experience good long lasting relationships before.

It's always the guy being too nice out of guilt, or I'll do something stupid to fuck it up.

What if this time, it's both?!

OMG...

I'm rambling again...)

Blanked out at the exam hall.

:-/

God please, let me pass!

Don't like it when people don't know how to respect people's beliefs.

You may talk about people and their over zealous behaviors towards religion but please don't insult.

God please, enlighten their shallow minds and not let misguided lost sheeps tarnish your name.

Somedays...

Somedays like today, when my hormones rage and surge, I go crazy and think I might lose him.

For whichever stupid reason my overworked brain can think of.

Today was my inability to say his Chinese name right.

Yesterday was his mother.

I wonder what tomorrow would bring. Zzz.

Anyway. I'm exhausted. Good night!

Period cramp better not handicap me this week! I have exams and work to do!!

Rebuild savings! Squirrel time!

And yes, like all bloody squirrels, I forget where my money is stashed and park.

Just yesterday I realized I had forgotten my log in pin for my Standard Charted account.

Yay to card refusal.

I'm such a bloody genius.

Bad acid reflux from the sambal egg and curry keeping me wide awake.

Ughs.

Dear God, money drop from sky please? Thanks!

At this rate, parents I'll never get married.

Mothers hate me. Fathers think I'm too aloof.

I'm just phobic of parents. Especially since mine are such Tormentors, I can only expect others' to be the same.

I've yet to be wrong, since parents never took a liking to me...

Why can't I just elope?! Or just live in with my boyfriend without parents?!

Urgh...

I know your niggling fears, but please trust me, dear.

No one's coming near to where my heart is.

Irony here; I have the same fears.

You allay mine, I'll allay yours.

Put all our doubts and reservations to rest.

Because we are two peas in a pod. We live happily nestled together, side by side till the day we die. Connected by that invisible cord of telepathy.

Simply. <3

Oh hi, I know you're reading this.

IFLY!

Today I made him order at Fei Fei Wanton Mee.

He over ordered like how I usually do. And for two, we ate $25 worth of food.

Lol!

He gave me a tiny surprise, and bought me this!

Happiness!!!

But I was worried when I saw his unhappy face. He was so stressed from work, it bothered me😭

I wish I could hug away every bit of stress and discontent in him.

But I guess the best thing he can do right now is to find a better job that fits him.

He's in the wrong environment for him to grow in.

As it is always said in recruitment, "Right Fit" is necessary for a person to grow in any corporation.

And he does not fit into that right now.

Dear Lord, please land D with a career that truly fits him so that he may enjoy his work. Amen!!

He bought me tuna to last the week, when I told him I had run out of tuna at home!

💗💗

Sweetest boyfriend ever!

I tend to think too much. But he has never failed to allay my fears so far.

I can't imagine life without him now, because he has opened up my heart for him.

Without him, my heart would be a gaping hole henceforth.

Dear god, thank you for putting him into my life. Thank you for answering my prayers. Thank you Lord! Amen!!

He's dead asleep now, but I'm still awake and smiling to myself.

He panicked today and bought me plastic flowers.

He's so stupid when he did that, it's cute as hell. Just like how he splashed a cup of water on me when he saw me at Ivan's 21st Party and panicked cuz he had no idea how to react.

Yesterday he waited at my void deck and gave me a bunch of plastic flowers because the florist had run out of flowers and he had no idea what to do.

So he grabbed the fake flowers as a last resort.

At least he didn't blow a bomb on it. Cuz the money could have been used to do other things or saved up.

I was angry. But his silliness has more than made up for it.

D, ilyfna.

And I still thank god for you each day.

I really don't see the point in feeling guilty and sorry and telling me about it when nothing is done to salvage it.

Please shove your lip service up your arse and save your sorry, guilty bollocks.

Men and their never ending bullshit.

I'm better off alone.

Screw Valentine's.

\(^_^)/ <3

The deepest love I aim to keep,
Is that from yours, in it's purest state.

Your arms, my safest sanctuary,
Come what may, calamity or peace,
I know in you, my confidante, no words need to be said and you'll understand.

I'm blessed, truly blessed to have you, my dear; on this day, I'm glad you are my one true Valentine.

He bought me Acnes pimple stick thingy today for my exploding forehead!

And I didn't have to tell him for him to buy it for me!

Love!

And he gave me can fare home after study group again!

XD

I love him so much!

I'm planning our short getaway to Batam next month! XD

That shy, nerdy, quiet, man. I so absolutely love.

*\(^o^)/*<3~

He taught me Accounts today. I couldn't help but grin like an idiot as he taught me.

Love him so much!

To the Dentist!

I brought D to the dentist today! I'm so damn proud of myself! Because I'm the only person, other than his mom, who has managed to bring him to the dentist to get his teeth checked and cleaned!

Kudos to me!!

I spent the entire day with him and I'm happy!

Love love love!!!

Thank you Lord for this day!

He shielded me with a bigass umbrella today! And bought me plasters for my face!

XD

And he brought down the shades in the car before I went in, so that sun won't scar me!

But I think the UV rays still got to me cuz my wound darkened. :-/

Staring at him napping and stroking his hair while he snoozes... Comforting and satisfying.

<3 ~( ^ . ^ )// (￣▽,￣)Zzz...

I love you. I don't blame you.

And I look damn hot in this pic.

CAN YOU PLEASE SCREAM TAI TAI?!

Anyway, I had laser surgery to remove the mole on my nose bridge today. Didn't hurt much. Just the off putting smell of burnt flesh.

I'll have to stay indoors for the next few weekends and stay away from the sunlight.

D better shield me from the sun if not I'll freak out if it bloody hell grows back.

💜

You cheer me up when I'm down. You make the effort to see me when I miss you.

Happiness.

Even without family support, I'm glad you're here with me to support me through this hard time.

<3

I'm just worried that I'm too damn expensive to take care of. :-/

I know you'll scold me cuz I'm thinking too much, inception style but you can't deny there is truth in it. :-p

Loved Outback Steakhouse today.

Tender juicy steak done medium rare.

I enjoyed feeding you. It makes me happy stuffing you up. ^_^¥

Love you sooooo much!

I love indulging in my favourite activity with you.

I don't need anything else. Just a meal and some alone time with you.

I'm contented!

Thank you Lord for Darrie. He's the best thing that has happened to me so far, after all that unhappiness and disappointment and slip ups in my past relationships.

I'm truly thankful for him. Just don't make him a NATO-er. I despise that. I know he's a man of his words. But as with all men, time makes them too comfortable and soon they only give lip service.

A man who does not honor his words hold no respect in my eyes.

(TTM-ing again!)

God, thank you! Amen!

Never get tired of staring at him.

Anyway, I've tendered my resignation. Can't wait to start another phase of my life.

Maybe all these while, this is what I'm really meant to be.

God be my guide!

When he sings, my heart melts.

God, please don't let this stop.

The value of you,
No one can see.

Something special only known between you and me.

Only the one who appreciates, treasures.

Our love, forever be.

CHEESY.

I love cheese. And Daryl. And vinegar.

I'm a cheesy, easily jealous dragon.

Skipped a movie even though we had bought tickets.

Because time was better off spent talking than just staring at a screen together.

Having tea and talking beats window shopping.

Enjoying the cool night air beats squeezing in the mall.

We did shitloads of walking today. Happiness.

Even without a car, it's enjoyable!

I made him go for facial today and his face was cleaned!

Woots!

I'm going to make his face better!

He's not good at planning dates.

I'll do the planning next time and he can take care of the logistics.

But next week on we will have to start mugging.

Exams are looming and my head is full of swooning hearts to concentrate in class.

I must pull through!

Dear God,
Please make me a tai tai and make sure Daryl makes it big for my sake. Lol.

If he's the one for me, then please make it easy for us in life so that I may get married soon. AMEN!

I'm still thinking of ways to introduce him to the Tormentors but I think if he's the one, when there is no way, God will make one for me!

*screams*

HE IS GETTING HOTTER AND IM GETTING CRAZIER OVER HIM!!!

Omg. I'm a genius man sculptor.

All man in my hands get well taken care of.

TRUE STORY.

He has nice defined biceps and abs now.

*swoon*

Chi Ching complimented my nails yesterday during the test.

^^

Usually she compliments my heels.

^^

But she has never complimented me on my Econs results.

-.-!

Siao Liao. Self destructive thoughts creeping into me head.

I need some serious reaffirmation.

:-/

I wish my nightmare will never come true and you'll stand up for me no matter what.

Maybe my brain has really gone into over drive, thinking way too much.

Siao Liao. Self destructive thoughts creeping into me head.

I need some serious reaffirmation.

Him.

<3

I should take more pictures with him. He looked absolutely delectable today.

AND HE KISSED ME IN CLASS.

OMGWTFBBQ.

<3.<3

Ooo yeah.

I'm totally in love with my muscle relaxant.

We had supper at 126 today.

I ate too much and puked.

*blurgh*

Too old for over eating.

Tried not to over order but I think we were still stuffed in the end.

LOL.

I think for me to make him quit smoking would be equivalent to relationship suicide.

I've tried so many times in past relationships that it is with trepidation and dread that it is an eventuality.

But if he doesn't stop, I'll prolly die earlier than him of lung cancer.

MY LUNGS ARE 33 YEARS OLD.

From a life time of secondhand smoke and my self destructive tendencies, out of frustration I'll just suck in second hand smoke and hold it in.

YES, I fucking do that.

KILL ME ALREADY!

toofuckingselfdrstructive.

Thishastostop.

I love him so much. It's so damn wonderful.

That amazing chemistry. Unexplainable telepathy.

<3

One simply can't compare what you see outside with what connects us so deeply inside.

Meant to be.