I'm secretly happy that the Queen Bitch's favored daughter has been brought down to Earth and dethroned from her high horse.

But as her sister, I'm worried and trying my best to help her.

Contradicting, I know. But with each fall, one LEARNS.

I've learnt something from every fall, and I suppose this fall would let her learn too.

*sigh*

I'm so bloody full of contradictions. =/

Anyway, constant updates of friends getting hitched is making me jump and worry and roll my eyes in disbelief at the same time. =/

I'm jumping and worried because I don't want to be left on the shelf.

I mean, when I was still dating, they were single. And while I'm coiled in a tug of war with Lizard, they get engaged to their first / second boyfriend?!

NOT FAIR! But then all exes were validly exes for a reason, except for maybe WQ, whom I made myself leave because he was in Aussie and I was too scared of being lonely. [Hence all these tragedy.]

But I'm rolling my eyes in disbelief, cuz what's the damn point in marrying when one has no moolah to finance a house and a life together?

=/

What's the point in depending on your parents for your wedding when it's not out of your own pockets?

LOL.

Perhaps I've been paying for myself for too damn long that depending on them makes me feel embarrassed?
I'm not very sure to how big an extent, but I do kinda look down on people who depend on their parents at my age.

Although (contradict), I'm depending on the Father Figure to pay for my Education first while I struggle to pay back my Poly loans. =.=!

(ARGH! WHY AM I TAKING SO DAMN LONG TO PAY BACK MY STUPID LOANS?!)

sigh.


Loans after loans after loans.


There has to be more to life than paying loans all the time...=/


I really wish to go overseas in June and get out of the country, even for just a couple of days in M'sia or Batam.

Refresh my mind, body and soul.